@Pattidevans I knew that my absence and when I have been here my lack of conversation etc wouldn’t have gone unnoticed.
At the start of the week I just couldn’t even begin to put into words what was going on in my head.
I’m pleased that now I can and I can open up and move forward processing my thoughts and feelings etc.
Throw into the mix that last Friday I had my three month check in with my therapist (we’re half way through a 6 month pause) and that was the final straw really. Lots of things came up that I hadn’t been prepared for and without him there this week that’s been scary.
Also police requested SAR for full medical records and therapy notes from every single therapist I’ve seen since 1999, those notes coming to me, my having to read them and then send them on is also tough.
Obviously still dealing with the folks getting old and their inevitable deaths is not easy when you live alone as there’s no one to share the burden with. So it’s all on my shoulders. Or so it seems.