MeeTooTeeTo
Well-Known Member
- Relationship to Diabetes
- Type 2
- Pronouns
- He/Him
A 5.9 for me this am. 🙂
Dez
Dez
Big hugs to you @Grannylorraine. Don't apologise, as @eggyg says, writing it down can sometimes help.Morning
4.7, stomach seems to have settled down overnight, but horrible muzzy head that co-codamol didn’t help with, although I know that is not the best medication for headaches but had run out of paracetamol and I am allergic to aspirin and ibuprofen which hubby takes and seemed to be loads of packets of in the medicine cupboard. Can’t really face the stresses of work today after spending most of the weekend in the bathroom, and for some reason it has triggered my mental health and spent a lot of the night churning over things that have happened both at work in the past and both hubby and I losing our fathers 7 weeks apart in 2nd lockdown in 2020, I know neither of us will never be at peace knowing we could not see our fathers when they were in hospital, that we couldn’t see or hug family for comfort or give them the funerals they deserved, but I thought I had at least rationalised it and accepted it, but I think the current stress of work, the part of me that castrophises (sp) dealing with a new IT system that has come with woefully inadequate training for all staff, yet for some reason everyone thinks as admin people my colleague and I should know how everything works, answer all their questions and I am worried will blame us when we can’t or something goes wrong, but as we are bottom of the heirachy it is easy to push it all our way.
Couple that with being let down by my friend over seeing her Boxing Day, hubby is working so I will now be on my own, and more upset that she didn’t offer an apology, just a long text about what she wanted, I can understand she has changed her mind, but surely you should at least apologise or use something like, I hope you don’t mind, or maybe I know you will be disappointed but. Just made me feel no thought for my feelings as long as her own were met.
Sorry for the long woe is me but really tearful and actually no where else to put this as hubby doesn’t understand, he just accepts what happened with our dads as we couldn’t change anything, and as he is not a very sociable person and quite happy to sit at home on his own, doesn’t understand why I am upset with my friend.
Candelabra? Did you get it?Morning all. 5.7 today.
Going home today. I love going on holiday but I love going home too. We have up to 10.30 to leave but we’ll be long gone by then. Want to pop into Hayes Garden World on the way home as we saw a table candle thingy ( I’m sure there’s a name for it) it holds 10 candles, and is “ silver” and it’s long. I think it’ll look good on our dining table. Of course we couldn’t carry it when we visited on foot last week and we said if it’s still there Monday it’s meant to be. It was in the sale, reduced quite considerably so it may not be there. We’ll see. Wondering whether to nip to Windermere to Lakeland too as we need cling film and tin foil, and it is the best, but we’ll need our blinkers on as we always spend a fortune on things we didn’t know existed and definitely didn’t know we needed!
Lovely last day yesterday, Darragh was still intent on blowing us over but it didn’t rain until we got back. Very cold though but we had a glimpse of the sun every now and again on our walk to Grasmere. Purchased some gingerbread for @zippyjojo, I had to queue! TBF it’s a teeny tiny shop but there’s always a queue doesn’t matter when you go. They do a roaring trade. Home by 2pm, quite achy, at almost 8 miles it was our longest walk. Packed a few things and just read until tea time.
Back to the grind this week, child/elderly parent care , hospital appointment for Mr E, opticians and haircut/ colour for me. Christmas tree was delivered by youngest daughter yesterday, it’ll stay in the garden until Saturday, haven’t time to even contemplate putting it up before then. Will do it Saturday, that’s early enough for a real tree in my experience. Don’t want to be looking at a bare twig on Boxing Day!
Have a Happy Monday.
Last few photos, if you look carefully you’ll see the sun! It’s been rare this last week.
Big hugs Lorraine. You might feel better now for putting this down in words, that usually works for me. It stops it whirring around in your head so much. I tend to catastrophize ( sp) too when I’m awake in the night. I tend to keep it to myself because in the cold light of day it sometimes feels a bit daft, I’m no way down playing your feelings, and I can rationalise it a little bit more. Maybe write a list of your concerns/worries in order of what bothers you the most and work through them one by one, see if it helps, some things there’s nothing that can be done. ie both your dad and hubby’s dad, it was a truly dreadful situation and there’s lots of anger, understandably, but that anger isn’t going to change anything, is there a support group near you that could help you with through something like that? Could you speak to your mum or another relative about it?
I hope your nocturnal bathroom visits get sorted, feeling ill and being tired is definitely not helping the situation. Once that’s fixed I’m sure things will feel better for you. Xx
Thank you both, I have contacted the doctor and waiting for a call back, I have decided today that I will be handing in my notice at work, this is the catalyst for all the other bad thoughts again, I did have grief counselling regarding our loses, and generally I know it was that way for a reason and we were not the only ones in that position, but once I go down that black hole, everything comes to the surface again, and it is now the difficult month as coming up to 4th anniversary of father in laws passing on 15th and would of been my dad’s birthday on 19th, so always going to be a bit of a trigger, just like October is as mum in laws birthday would have been 22nd October and my dad passed on 27th October, so always a sad time for us.Big hugs to you @Grannylorraine. Don't apologise, as @eggyg says, writing it down can sometimes help.
I can't say anything to help with the loss of your dad apart from i'm so sorry.
I've been where you are with stresses at work and also had a friend who treated me badly, often cancelling as i was walking out of the door to meet her with no explaination. In the end, work stress got the better of me and i finished and eventually i realised the friend wasn't being a friend to me. Its hurtful. Is there anyone you can talk to about these things? Anyone at work you can speak to about the stress?
I hope you feel better soon. Big hugs again.
It will talk to several different pumps - certainly Omnipod 5 - in order to make an HCL.Starting my first Libre 2 Plus sensor today - what are the advantages to the 2 Plus? I couldn’t find any on Abbott’s comparison chart except for it lasting for 15, not 14, days. We’ll see!
Yes! The woman in the shop called it a candleabra. Managed to squeeze it in the boot. Currently on the way home with a huge poinsettia and a box of ten candles on my knee. Good job it’s only an hour away!Candelabra? Did you get it?
You’re doing the right thing Lorraine. No job is worth being so unhappy. Good luck with doctor. XxThank you both, I have contacted the doctor and waiting for a call back, I have decided today that I will be handing in my notice at work, this is the catalyst for all the other bad thoughts again, I did have grief counselling regarding our loses, and generally I know it was that way for a reason and we were not the only ones in that position, but once I go down that black hole, everything comes to the surface again, and it is now the difficult month as coming up to 4th anniversary of father in laws passing on 15th and would of been my dad’s birthday on 19th, so always going to be a bit of a trigger, just like October is as mum in laws birthday would have been 22nd October and my dad passed on 27th October, so always a sad time for us.
@freesia - I am going to have to take the same course of action with the person who I thought was a friend, as she has let me down at a time when I am already very low, no apology, yet since she had her baby this year, I have run round to her at the drop of a hat, when she needed things, when she was lonely and couldn’t get out as a single mum, got hubby to pick up baby milk and nappies on his way home from work and drop them round to her. Now of course her son is 8 months old, she can get out and about easier, had made mummy friends etc, I am obviously no useful to her any more, just feel a mug that I thought she was a friend, but only while I was useful to her.
When I get to speak to the doctor I am asking to review my meds and sign me off for as long as possible while I get my notice handed in and hopefully to cover my notice period. Hubby is going to see if there is any work going in Tesco either I store or the warehouse, ironically the warehouse pays more than my stressful admin job. But we will see, but if necessary we will put our house up for sale and move somewhere cheaper and smaller, because if I don’t do something I will end up dead. Sorry that the last statement is blunt, but I have struggled on for 2 years now with this job.
Thank you all for your support today and bothering to read my whining posts.
Good for you @Grannylorraine. For what its worth, my GP signed me off for the whole notice period, 2 weeks initially then told me to ring if i wanted to continue it which i did. The relief i felt at that and also on the day after my notice period ended...well, a weight had been lifted. As for your friend, friendships come and go and the ones worth fighting for are the ones that work both ways (if that makes sense).Thank you both, I have contacted the doctor and waiting for a call back, I have decided today that I will be handing in my notice at work, this is the catalyst for all the other bad thoughts again, I did have grief counselling regarding our loses, and generally I know it was that way for a reason and we were not the only ones in that position, but once I go down that black hole, everything comes to the surface again, and it is now the difficult month as coming up to 4th anniversary of father in laws passing on 15th and would of been my dad’s birthday on 19th, so always going to be a bit of a trigger, just like October is as mum in laws birthday would have been 22nd October and my dad passed on 27th October, so always a sad time for us.
@freesia - I am going to have to take the same course of action with the person who I thought was a friend, as she has let me down at a time when I am already very low, no apology, yet since she had her baby this year, I have run round to her at the drop of a hat, when she needed things, when she was lonely and couldn’t get out as a single mum, got hubby to pick up baby milk and nappies on his way home from work and drop them round to her. Now of course her son is 8 months old, she can get out and about easier, had made mummy friends etc, I am obviously no useful to her any more, just feel a mug that I thought she was a friend, but only while I was useful to her.
When I get to speak to the doctor I am asking to review my meds and sign me off for as long as possible while I get my notice handed in and hopefully to cover my notice period. Hubby is going to see if there is any work going in Tesco either I store or the warehouse, ironically the warehouse pays more than my stressful admin job. But we will see, but if necessary we will put our house up for sale and move somewhere cheaper and smaller, because if I don’t do something I will end up dead. Sorry that the last statement is blunt, but I have struggled on for 2 years now with this job.
Thank you all for your support today and bothering to read my whining posts.
ooh, let us know if you get on so we can watch it.Afternoon all and 5.8 for me it was.
Was busy this morning doing a zoom audition for 'The Chase' one of the questions involved insulin which I got right 🙂
Any way I'm on the shortlist for the actual show but no guarantees.
Have a good day everyone.
I’m going to brave a piece today…How did the cake with chocolate milk turn out.