Morning, I made it yesterday with a flight and a long drive (brother picked me up) and am now up with family for a bit.
Think things have settled in my brain now and I’m in a different stage of shock or the shock has worn off a bit? I’m not randomly bursting into tears any more, last time I did wasn’t since Thursday. I don’t really believe the news though, and my dad looks healthier than last weekend which just confuses the matter.
The news I was sad about is that last weekend I took my dad into hospital as he was very weak and badly jaundiced, we thought it was linked to his gallstones and that taking him in might bump him up the list to get his gallbladder out.
But, they found that they are tumours in the gallbladder not stones, with other tumours in the liver, kidneys, lungs, spleen, and probably his brain based on symptoms but haven’t scanned there yet, and I forget where else. He’ll find out what kind and stage etc on Monday, but have an idea of that based on the specialist he’s seeing. They said worst case, he’s only got a couple of weeks. So think the shock of that being quite different to gallstones is what got me, and had been screwing up bgs this week.
5.2 this morning, having spent most of yesterday 4-5 i am going to drop the Lantus tonight. Is 10% (from 50 to 45) a too big jump? Haven’t changed Lantus in ages that dose has always been fine ish and I play with my apidra more because of my erratic pancreas.