Sugarbum
Well-Known Member
- Relationship to Diabetes
- Type 1
Sitting here crying. A has been having loads of hypo's and today he has had 5! They were between 3 and 2.1mmols. I am sick to death of f******** diabetes. I try my best and i cant get anywhere. I also think he may be cealiac - he is windy and has random tummy aches. He isnt putting any weight on. I am sorry to be so negative - but i feel wiped out today and feel totally selfish and just want to sleep and not worry!!I cant seem to stop him being hypo and i am feeling very guilty about it. I have 2 other children and they dont get a look in with regards attention and that makes me feel guilty. I dont normally use bad language and i dont approve of other people using it - but i have had enough today...I feel useless and i am sick to death of diabetes..and sick to death of stupid people telling me to take a day off!!!!!!!!!!!!!How can I? Diabetes doesnt take a day off! Everyone thinks i cope well - but this is rubbish - why is A still having hypo's?
My sister is very intelligent and very well educated and is a medical professional and she tells me that I worry too much and that I need to relax more.....oh my god.....I am so angry with her...she knows nothing about diabetes and she thinks she can advise me.....
I am a **** mother and i feel negligent and I think A would be better off living with someone like Adrienne - she is confident and knows everything there is to know about diabetes
I apologise for my bad language - but i feel so sad and angry and i wish diabetes would just go away and give us back our normal life that we used to have...
BEV, Bev, Bev....((((((((((((((HUGS)))))))))))))))
This is awful I am so sorry my love you are upset. Go for the anger- get it off your chest. Have a bloody good cry, sometimes I think this is all we can do to express how bloody awful this is sometimes. Dont be sorry to be negative, if you cant 'fly off' here amongst us then what are we here for? I would have been much more vocal for being this upset. I wish I could pour you a G&T and let you thrash this one out, and a big hug of course.
Bev you put so much effort in. What we all want with diabetes is control and accepting we will not always get it no matter how hard we fight for it is crushing. I firmly believe to tame this disease you have to crash and breakdown with it sometimes to appreciate the good days when it goes right and you are in the driving seat and diabetes doesnt dictate what or how you feel that day. Of course you feel bad that A needs all this attension, but in the years to come you other 2 will learn what you did to give their brother a long and healthy life and understand. Sure it doesnt make it any easier but Bev you do everything a mother can do, and above that- you do it well.
I have a sister too, and bloody hell does she make me angry sometimes just like what yours has done today! (is she your older sister by any chance?). She probably doesnt know what to say in support of what you go through, so comes out with what she does know- straight from the books. It is really unfortunate and I'm sure her comments have really hurt you. Her ignorance is probably hard to stomach on such a sensitive subject but she also needs her time to learn how to respond to you with all this going on. Its cutting when people say these things, I know. I am really sorry Bev.
You have probably gone to bed now but I'm kicking about for a bit. If you feel like posting I am here.
You are in my thoughts Bev.
L x