Caution mentions suicide
Moderators please feel free to delate this post I will understand
Its taken me some time to make my mind up about weather to post this or not. Please dont judge me you cant me feel any worse about myself than I do right now I know by posting this Im asking for a lot of understanding, maybe I dont have that right who knows. I know Im very stupid in what I did
oK 6 WEEKS ago i was feeling really bad, didt want to be here anymore. I suffer from Bi-Polar and Borderline Personality Disorder and sometimes it gets this bad. I obtained extra insulin in as the crisis team said a very sneaky way. I took the lot. A friend found me and a ambulance was called. Because of past things this also means the police turn up. I kicked off because I didt want to go to hospital and I didt want any treatment. So the police detained me under the Mental Health Act and i had no choice in the matter then. Got to hospital, by this time they had me in handcuffs and leg restraints. The duty team(2 psychiatrists and a social worker) were called and they accessed me and sectioned me UNDER THE MENTAL HEALTH ACT. When you are sectioned you have no choice in the matter about staying in hospital or accepting treatment, they can do this by force. I spent a week in hospital. My blood sugars went really bad. I did have some fits. I cant remember that week completely. I can recall odd bits having a drip fitted in my arm, security holding me down on the bed because i tried to leg it, The last day I saw the diabetic consultant this is a woman I have seen before and dont like as she comes across as an arrogant Im doctor I know best attitude. She told me its important you loose weight , insulin makes it impossible to do that so Im gonna stop it. Stop it she did. They let me go after a week, got told by the psychiatric liaison lady that both my psychiatrist and Community Psychiatric Nurse were happy for my section to be lifted and for this to be done.
Since then I have had no insulin at all just been taking Metformin and Pioglitazone as usual. I was on 70 units a day. Well since then my blood sugars have ranged between 17.2 and HI and I have keytones a lot of the time. I see my GP every week and hes very concerned about my levels. As he says its impossible to control your blood sugar without insulin. Hes been in touch with the consultant at the hospital about getting the insulin back and has said in the end they will have no choice in the matter but to give you it back. It was because of the overdose she stopped it not because i need to loose wieght, I knew that anyway.
Would like to know what damage could be done to my body by lack of insulin what complications may possibly happen
Last week my bs read HI for a couple of days, my vision went blurry. For the last week I have been drinking so much water it hurts my tummy (around 7 one liter boltels a day)
Moderators please feel free to delate this post I will understand
Its taken me some time to make my mind up about weather to post this or not. Please dont judge me you cant me feel any worse about myself than I do right now I know by posting this Im asking for a lot of understanding, maybe I dont have that right who knows. I know Im very stupid in what I did
oK 6 WEEKS ago i was feeling really bad, didt want to be here anymore. I suffer from Bi-Polar and Borderline Personality Disorder and sometimes it gets this bad. I obtained extra insulin in as the crisis team said a very sneaky way. I took the lot. A friend found me and a ambulance was called. Because of past things this also means the police turn up. I kicked off because I didt want to go to hospital and I didt want any treatment. So the police detained me under the Mental Health Act and i had no choice in the matter then. Got to hospital, by this time they had me in handcuffs and leg restraints. The duty team(2 psychiatrists and a social worker) were called and they accessed me and sectioned me UNDER THE MENTAL HEALTH ACT. When you are sectioned you have no choice in the matter about staying in hospital or accepting treatment, they can do this by force. I spent a week in hospital. My blood sugars went really bad. I did have some fits. I cant remember that week completely. I can recall odd bits having a drip fitted in my arm, security holding me down on the bed because i tried to leg it, The last day I saw the diabetic consultant this is a woman I have seen before and dont like as she comes across as an arrogant Im doctor I know best attitude. She told me its important you loose weight , insulin makes it impossible to do that so Im gonna stop it. Stop it she did. They let me go after a week, got told by the psychiatric liaison lady that both my psychiatrist and Community Psychiatric Nurse were happy for my section to be lifted and for this to be done.
Since then I have had no insulin at all just been taking Metformin and Pioglitazone as usual. I was on 70 units a day. Well since then my blood sugars have ranged between 17.2 and HI and I have keytones a lot of the time. I see my GP every week and hes very concerned about my levels. As he says its impossible to control your blood sugar without insulin. Hes been in touch with the consultant at the hospital about getting the insulin back and has said in the end they will have no choice in the matter but to give you it back. It was because of the overdose she stopped it not because i need to loose wieght, I knew that anyway.
Would like to know what damage could be done to my body by lack of insulin what complications may possibly happen
Last week my bs read HI for a couple of days, my vision went blurry. For the last week I have been drinking so much water it hurts my tummy (around 7 one liter boltels a day)
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