Group 7-day waking average?

5.6

Stayed up until past midnight last night. Was wide awake at 2:30 this morning.

I’ve done an econsult with the GP telling them that I’m dealing with memories of “various intimate violent assaults” and that I’m having sleepless nights and flashbacks etc.

I’m hoping that there’s an offer of more than just zopiclone but also of talking therapy/support because it’s sounding like it’s basically PTSD and that’s also having an impact on my mental health (of course) as well as on BP (which this morning was way up into grade 1 hypertension levels).

Got really angry with a “friend” yesterday. He’s the one who when I told what had been going on he just glossed over it and carried on talking about how tough life is for him at the moment because the other partners at the consultancy he’s at don’t like him and the revised planning application for a two story extension to the back of his London home has got to be revised again just because it’s in a conservation area. Oh and he’s lonely.
Yesterday got a text message literally saying “Sun’s out! Life is great! What you been up to? Getting some? hehe”

My reply was “Q. Do you remember anything I told you when we last spoke?”
“You said something about meeting someone and having a great time.”
“No I didn’t. Think again”
“Yes you did. You told me you’d met a Scottish guy in Hyde Park and got on really well and want to see him again”

He’s an idiot. An entirely self absorbed idiot. Right now I feel angry that he just can’t hear what I’m saying over his own self interest.
I know I’m guilty of judging his behaviour against what I think I’d do in his circumstances and that’s not really fair. Still doesn’t stop me being angry and disappointed with him though.
 
ColinUK said:
5.6

Stayed up until past midnight last night. Was wide awake at 2:30 this morning.

I’ve done an econsult with the GP telling them that I’m dealing with memories of “various intimate violent assaults” and that I’m having sleepless nights and flashbacks etc.

I’m hoping that there’s an offer of more than just zopiclone but also of talking therapy/support because it’s sounding like it’s basically PTSD and that’s also having an impact on my mental health (of course) as well as on BP (which this morning was way up into grade 1 hypertension levels).

Got really angry with a “friend” yesterday. He’s the one who when I told what had been going on he just glossed over it and carried on talking about how tough life is for him at the moment because the other partners at the consultancy he’s at don’t like him and the revised planning application for a two story extension to the back of his London home has got to be revised again just because it’s in a conservation area. Oh and he’s lonely.
Yesterday got a text message literally saying “Sun’s out! Life is great! What you been up to? Getting some? hehe”

My reply was “Q. Do you remember anything I told you when we last spoke?”
“You said something about meeting someone and having a great time.”
“No I didn’t. Think again”
“Yes you did. You told me you’d met a Scottish guy in Hyde Park and got on really well and want to see him again”

He’s an idiot. An entirely self absorbed idiot. Right now I feel angry that he just can’t hear what I’m saying over his own self interest.
I know I’m guilty of judging his behaviour against what I think I’d do in his circumstances and that’s not really fair. Still doesn’t stop me being angry and disappointed with him though.
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Unfortunately there are many around like that!
 
@Spozkins Seems like there are a few of us in the same boat at the moment. Nice to know I am not alone battling unexplained high levels but not wishing it on anyone just to keep me company.
Definitely not hormones in my case.
 
Spozkins said:
@rebrascora no luck yet with your levels?

It is a bit wierd how sometimes they can go AWOL for no apparent reason..
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I'm doing all the right things but not getting payback.... yet! I know it will come right eventually, but the mean time is frustrating! Just pleased I don't have an appointment with my consultant or HbA1c due any time soon although may ring the clinic and ask to change QA insulin again as I don't think the Fiasp is working for me. Wondering about Humalog. NR is OK but 1hr plus prebolus for breakfast is a pain. It's too long to potter around in the house waiting for it to kick in and too short to go out and do morning stables and get back before I hypo and if I don't inject straight away as soon as I wake up I get hit with FOTF, so either I inject for that and then for breakfast later which means another daily injection or maybe I need to figure out an "on the go" breakfast. The Fiasp is not the whole problem though as also needing significantly more Basal insulin when I would normally be reducing at this time of year. Arrgh!! It's just all haywire! The Diabetes Fairy has obviously escaped from @Northerner's concrete and lead lined sarcophagus and flown north. Maybe she is living in one of my beehives and enjoying some honey. I imagine it's just the sort of life for a diabetes sprite!
 
ColinUK said:
5.6

Stayed up until past midnight last night. Was wide awake at 2:30 this morning.

I’ve done an econsult with the GP telling them that I’m dealing with memories of “various intimate violent assaults” and that I’m having sleepless nights and flashbacks etc.

I’m hoping that there’s an offer of more than just zopiclone but also of talking therapy/support because it’s sounding like it’s basically PTSD and that’s also having an impact on my mental health (of course) as well as on BP (which this morning was way up into grade 1 hypertension levels).

Got really angry with a “friend” yesterday. He’s the one who when I told what had been going on he just glossed over it and carried on talking about how tough life is for him at the moment because the other partners at the consultancy he’s at don’t like him and the revised planning application for a two story extension to the back of his London home has got to be revised again just because it’s in a conservation area. Oh and he’s lonely.
Yesterday got a text message literally saying “Sun’s out! Life is great! What you been up to? Getting some? hehe”

My reply was “Q. Do you remember anything I told you when we last spoke?”
“You said something about meeting someone and having a great time.”
“No I didn’t. Think again”
“Yes you did. You told me you’d met a Scottish guy in Hyde Park and got on really well and want to see him again”

He’s an idiot. An entirely self absorbed idiot. Right now I feel angry that he just can’t hear what I’m saying over his own self interest.
I know I’m guilty of judging his behaviour against what I think I’d do in his circumstances and that’s not really fair. Still doesn’t stop me being angry and disappointed with him though.
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I really hope you can find the right kind of therapist Colin because this is tough for you to cope with alone. Someone specialising in PTSD would be ideal especially with abuse survivors. Just remember you are a survivor and your experience will never be allowed to define you!

As for your friend. He may just be utterly clueless at knowing how to respond appropriately or responsively to your issues so he commits the cardinal sin of trying to ‘jolly you out of it’. During my cancer journey I’ve experienced this and have had unreal conversations with people who completely ignored any mention
of my health and treatment. Like you, they’ve diverted it to what sound like ‘comparisons’ as if to minimise what you’re telling them. If it wasn’t so ignorant and emotionally inept, it would actually be funny! Or not!

Best wishes, Amigo
 
Anitram said:
Maybe since your jab? My levels went up a little a couple of days after mine and have pretty much stayed there since.
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I have that thought at the back of my mind and voiced it to my sister this morning. I know you are seeing slightly increased levels, despite reducing your carbs but I already eat pretty low carb and increased my insulin but getting 9s not just on waking but stubbornly throughout the day and night despite increased insulin and corrections is on a bit of a different level.
 
@ColinUK sorry to hear about your 'friend's' reaction. Sadly some people simply don't or can't hear what they consider unsavoury topics. Your story is all too real and common and mostly hidden so to have come out and talked about it, to be trying to get the disgusting culprits face justice and to get the right help for you is nothing short of heroic. Keep your head held high and ignore those that aren't or can't be supportive. Counselling and/or, as you say talking therapy, I am sure will be helpful and I wish you the best of luck with all of it xx
 
OMG - just realised I had a HS this morning! Wooo! (It's actually my second - the first was somewhen in February but did not realise it's significance at the time).
 
Anitram said:
Maybe since your jab? My levels went up a little a couple of days after mine and have pretty much stayed there since.
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I reckon same here.
 
EllsBells said:
OMG - just realised I had a HS this morning! Wooo! (It's actually my second - the first was somewhen in February but did not realise it's significance at the time).
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Well done @EllsBells
 
HenryBennett said:
I reckon same here.
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Interesting what @Anitram says, my levels have been all over the place since I had my vaccine on 16th Feb. I felt unwell for about 12 hours after the jab, and then fine for a few days, but then my throat and tonsils swelled up, and stayed that way for about three weeks, gradually improving until they are more or less back to normal. Either the jab caused the reaction, or despite all the hand sanitiser, masks etc, I managed to pick up an infection at the test centre (but not Covid!). My Bgs are getting better, as in, more maneageable, but I'm still on a 25% higher basal than I was, though it’s showing signs that I can now start reducing it. (Last week it had a 'last fling' for a few days, throat swollen again, BGs all over the place, insulin felt like injecting water, but I suddenly felt very much better after a couple of days, and now throat/sinuses etc feel more normal than it’s done for a month.) Wonder if it’s the same with you, @rebrascora .
 
Any of you This Morning and Loose Women? Wouldn't be surprised if they show up on Saturday Night Takeaway at some point, some very odd behaviour on both today, called it on Facebook at the end of Loose Women but then nodded off lol xx
 
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