My Journey in Poetry

[Michael7]

Excitement is getting in the way of my day to day things

One more week to go and the excitements building
This time next week I'll be sailing
Two weeks cruising in Norway’s Fjords
Before the Northern Lights we'll be off exploring

Two weeks of beautiful food
Copious drinks that can be consumed
So will this be the hardest part
Restricting my diet and still enjoy it

I'm taking lots of things to do
To stop me thinking of all that glorious food
The drink well I can give that a miss
But after all the chefs’ hard work would I not be remiss?

No No I say, I will be good
I can partake by not eating too much food
I shall monitor my weight with each day that passes
And trust in my pants that have no elastic!

Once I'm there and seeing the sights
I'm sure my head will be filled with delight
So much so I shall want to photograph and write
And spend all of my days absorbing those sights

My poor wife will get fed up with me
As I get absorbed in all the things I want to do and see
So plenty of reminders I shall put in the diary
To remind me that Its a cruise together and we need to party
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[Michael7]

Something to take my mind away from Diabetes

A miserable day which looks like it’s here to stay
More cold winds, sleet and rain are heading our way
The very thought of which makes me want to go out walking
Then I'm in an office where people don’t stop talking

A day on the moors with the wind howling round
Sleet and rain horizontal not hitting the ground
Whilst sitting here in an office shielded from the weather
My mind wanders the hills and where I feel untethered

An office is a restrictive place
It channels your thoughts away from your distinctive traits
For where your mind wants to be challenged and grow
The office stifles your mind and stipulates where to go

As I get older my body feels the cold
The wind and rain no longer has its hold
But within my mind I can't resist its power
To cleanse my soul in natures shower

So within the office I now stay
Listening to the moans of people on the way
Yes I'm warm and comfortable too
But my mind wants yesteryears body to come through

Walking through the hills, the wind blowing through my hair
Talking to my dog as she ran about everywhere
Now she's gone along with my hair
Walking alone doesn’t seem to be as much fun out there

So I take some pictures and sit a lot
Trying to picture the path the wind has got
Then put into words that 'x' factor I feel
So others can see what I see is real
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[Michael7]

I'm learning a lot about myself from this site

The more I read the more I learn
Diabetes is something not to be ignored
Different things happen to different people
Then the state of mind can become unstable

Why me! Some think as the problems come out
Some-time from within and sometime from those about
Personal decisions then have to be made
For the path you've to follow is already being laid

A positive outlook is a wonderful thing
Support from a forum for me is what I need
For sometimes I feel like saying 'mind your own business'
Whilst inside I'm saying 'just give me some guidance'

Guidance is different than telling what to do
And certainly not pressurising something on you
Hence why I like this forum with its myriad of people
Where a cross-census of opinion will help lead you through

I don't feel in control, and this I don't like
But at least I'm not pressured with others advise
I can pick and choose and then ask once again
Before making up my mind without being under duress

One thing that I wish that I could do
Is to verbally express myself face to face with you
Instead of hiding behind a pen and paper
I would love to be able to actually talk to you
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[Michael7]

For now - I'll si thi

Right now my friends I bid adieu
I won’t be back for a week - NO TWO
I will miss you all during my time away
But like a bad penny I shall return one day
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[Lindarose]

Wishing you a lovely holiday Michael 🙂

 

[Michael7]

Two weeks I've lived aboard a ship
Eaten gourmet food and drank quite a bit
Seen many Fjords and the Northern Lights
My mind is still running at a hundred miles an hour

Snow-capped mountains plunging into the sea
Tiny hamlets with large ships berthed in
Minimal conditions it first looked
After a few days I changed my outlook

Very little rush and push
Cars waited for you in there morning rush
The cities though were much like ours
I prefer the much quieter climes

The Northern Lights a sight to behold
But only one of the colours your eyes could unfold
Long exposures of those darkened skies
Brought out colours you would not believe your eyes

Gently tracking over the skies
Folding back under creating a colourful blind
Many forms came and went
And then a blackened sky as their energy was spent

Brilliant greens forming amazing patterns
Other colours remained in another guise
Showing the limits that our eyes can see
Yet another wonder it brought to me

Ice hotels bed you down with reindeer skins
Freezing cold you would not believe
Yet some people are happy to spend £350 each
To spend a night in conditions like these

Unfortunately I began to lose control
And my diabetes came back to the for
Though knowing now some of the symptoms
I still partook in things I should have refrained from

Right now I am paying the price
And reducing everything to get myself back
Although its not be going to be easy to do
I have my memories these will see me through
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[Lindarose]

Sounds like you had a wonderful holiday Michael Lots of memories to look back on Hope you can get back on track now .

 

[Michael7]

Just a day

My problems are real and are mine to repel
By following advice, medication as well
Absorbing information to understand and agree
Is something that does not come easy for people like me

My HB value reduced from 107 to 53
Not far to go before I'll be where I should be
Then what will happen? Will I be free?
No, I fear it'll still be the merry-go-round for me

Reading this forum it makes me aware
Of the things that could happen if I don't beware
So many things that play on my mind
That could lead me to have a terrible time

Some days it’s too much and I want to hide
Then the others when I fight with fortitude in mind
And then like now I can't make up my mind
I keep looking at the clock asking what ‘is the time’

So that’s me now a mixed up man
Who is tired of everything that looks like a plan
Oh for the days when these problems didn’t exist
And pills were for an hangover the previous night did bring

Now that’s been said and got off my chest
It’s time to shut up and get right in your head
These problems are here and will not go away
So now stop your moaning and go out and just enjoy the day!!
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[Michael7]

Mmmh Spring

This life I live moves so fast
So many things I try to track
To prevent my body from falling back
And remain well, neutral, it's an uphill track

I naively thought it would get easier
And life would again be a little breezier
Then once again I can savour the nectar which life brings
And not continue to pay for my sins

Spring is here and brings new hope
For a dose of sun and air will cleanse like soap
Wash away the darkest of thoughts
Which winter hoards and feeds some folk

so as my seedling of optimism grows
My motivation grows with those seeds now sown
So once again my bodies needs will become second nature
And my vista expands to a wonderful future
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[Northerner]

Good to hear the positivity Michael! 🙂

 

[Michael7]

Spring is waving its magic wand

This life we lead meanders along
Like a river sometimes turbulent and strong
Others are quiet where we can relax and wait
Just to see which way the current does take

Some days our sugar plays tricks on us
Making our bodies react which is not much fun
And then there are days when all goes right
And we can relax and recover before the next fight

Lest not forget though there are plenty of days
Where mediocrity has its place to play
We forget those days as they ramble along
And only remember when we got it wrong

Right now I seem to be in one of those days
Where mediocrity leads my way
Maybe it’s the sun that leading me astray
As I continue to think and remember some halcyon days
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[Michael7]

Nearly six months

My medication is high and symptoms now clearing
Nearly six months now since this diagnosis I was hearing
Still I have doubts and bury my head
Whilst still listening to what others have said

My diet I have got used to
Although I admit to lapses
For a condition I cannot see
Makes it really hard to believe

This is my way I am learning to control
For its hard to fight something I cannot see at all
So whilst not ignoring I'm going to have a ball
Instead of just sitting here waiting for my next fall
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[Michael7]

I wonder how close this is the truth to most people (like me!)

Two tablets of Metformin in the morning then two at night
Enough to keep the feeling of wind throughout
Watch the diet, (but cheat as well)
Soon the clock puts another day under my belt

On and on the days pass by
The diabetic nurse time soon is nigh
Memories of indiscretions come back
A passing thought of where I'm at

I do care about this condition of mine
But not enough to worry about that
Yet I do worry about the complications I read
But perspective still is a hard place to be

So I shall carry on as I do right now
Wait for the Nurse to come down on me from high
If that happens and right now it doesn’t seem real
So I'll stay an ostrich in my own little world.
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[Michael7]

Just a poem of the springs I used to have

So I sit and think of days gone by
Of morning walks watching a Spring sky
Seeing all around begin their rebirth
And listening to the calls of laughter and mirth

Different coloured birds flying on high
In and out of trees my how they can fly
Stillness of the pond before a ripple appears
As a fish breaks the top and an insect disappears

A Heron sits atop a tree watching down
Sees the ripple and swoops on down
Its head pierces the still water
Before emerging with the fish who dared to appear

So many things I loved to watch
Writing this I recall more of my loss
Maybe this is a call for me to emerge
From my sense of mourning and my own rebirth
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[Michael7]

Just a thought

This life we lead is full with rain or shine
Ne'er it seems a constant sublime
Some days we feel on top of the world
Before a cloud draws in and shutters then close

Some days we struggle with the conditions we own
On others it seems they are no trouble at all
Still it seems one day is just like the rest
But still something keeps us under duress

Keep taking the meds and doing as we are told
A sensible lifestyle and your life will be your own
Have some fun and indulge if you must
And remember the tally you bill will run up

For we all have to pay in one way or another
Therefore we have to ensure that the bill is covered
For the tally man will come when the least you expect
This is one way we can ensure we are not left in debt.
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[Michael7]

Should events in life can change your outlook?

Looking around at where we are
Wondering how we have travelled so far
Thinking what should I have or have not done
But then would not be that (we) have become

So right now I raise a glass just for me
To say well done I'm proud as you can see
I am not perfect but then who is
But I still think I am as good as I want to be

Regrets, yes I have a few
Though it’s by experience I now can see
So as I enter my middle age (lol)
I can still carry on with my little tirades

I go out dancing and play in a band
I have a few drinks and try and have a good time
I retreat to my caravan which is my little haven
For there I can do things that grandchildren disable

A bit of modelling (the wooden kind)
Take pictures of birds (the feathered kind)
Listen to music which only I like
Whilst relaxing on my decking with a beer or a brew

Plans will then formulate of what next I shall do
Maybe visiting a brother or two
Sod the work it'll be there when I get back
Maybe it’s time to recollect and have a good laugh

So there that’s it I now have a plan
This weekend I'll resolve and actions be revamped
Maybe it’s time to spend some of that earnt
And experience that fashion. (nah it will hurt)

But I shall resolve and then make my own way
And do some of the things my 'bucket list' does say
For right now I've emptied it by doing some things that I want
But now it’s time to refill and get out for some more fun.​

 

[Michael7]

Not all my thoughts revolve around Diabetes

Yesterday was nice and bright
This morning came with snow and ice
Right now it’s stopped and the sun's come out
But an icy wind keeps on our coats

The weather keeps trying with all its fury
Hold back the season from what it should be
The spring flowers though continue to glow
Nature’s way to give confidence that it'll go

So whilst my face gets freezing cold
My back is warmed by the sun's glow
Natures combatants in full flow
The winner will be - well we all know

Summer delights for all to see
So much blossom and full canopied trees
Trickling brooks with insects flying
Whilst birds swoop down and gorge in feasting

Fish break the water to join the birds
The insects have nowhere to turn
For whilst I sit and watch the scene
I feel myself going even more serene

These are just a few thoughts that content me
And help me to just wait and see
For the weather is fickle and likes to sulk
When Mother Nature enforces her rule.
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[Michael7]

Brrrrr its cold up North

It's freezing cold, right down to my toes
Makes me think about the problem it bodes
So many instances of problems with feet
Where is the line that defines time to treat

Wrapping up warm to beat the chill
Two hours later sunbathing (its brill)
Wrap up, strip off, whatever next
Is all this just another little test

I used to eat dependant on the weather
Not thinking about, well, it was not clever
So now I try and restrict and eat what I need
So many people in the office with bacon butties tease

But I'm cheerful enough with what I've got
I can't change the past and be what I'm not
So I can drool and wish as the butties go by
And restrict not change this diet of mine
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[Michael7]

The weekend where I can forget has gone

Back at work and the weathers grim
Time to pay for the weekends sins
All week now I shall remorselessly be good
Although I can't really know why I should

I don't remember much it went that fast
But I nibbled and drank a little of this and that
So now in a controlled environment I can monitor better
Especially when my wife packs my lunch, snacks are a never!

Still I don't know my sugar level
Am doing ok or should I be better
Still ignorance is bliss I think to myself
Until I read this forum and think oh no Bloody Hell

My Doctors appear to be fine with this
Probably knowing hypochondria is on my list
So I'll just keep going thinking I am doing right
Until a symptom comes along and give me a fright
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[Michael7]

Over 6 months gone

Diabetes symptoms in themselves
Now rarely raises its ugly head
Complacency has started to infiltrate
And querying in my head what is this state

So easy now to stray a bit
A pint of beer and pork pie hit
Yes I admit I have succumbed
Now feeling guilty but not in my tum

Metformin tablets are my only reminder
Of this condition that I am under
The sickly feeling is still there
Reminding me of the condition I bear

The Doctors advice of not to check
I feel does now undermine a bit
For how I feel is now the norm
Do I really have this sugar ‘abnorm’

I give myself a talking too (hope nobody’s looking)
To tell myself what my body is going through
But do i really understand and accept
Diabetes to me is an actual threat.

So there you are an anomaly I see
Just another hurdle for me to breach
So yet again sit down I must
And contemplate if I have understood
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