Thank you all so so much for all of your lovely messages ❤️ They are a great comfort to me and so appreciated xx
We are now home I am so grateful to be home don’t get me wrong but it feels like I’ve come home straight into an oncoming train ..
Willow recovered amazingly and has been so brave and strong, since being home her sugars have been up and down, mainly in the hyper bracket, which I’ve been told is quite normal for the early days, but obviously this scares me so much as I fear we will end up back in hospital, that I’m doing it all wrong. I will be honest but this is breaking me I cant stop crying, I feel like someone has ripped my heart out and stamped all over it, I’m really struggling with the injections, she is beginning to really cry and struggle when it comes to me doing it, especially with the bedtime Lantis one and I break down every time when I try my hardest to be strong - I then panic as i know I’ve got to do it but trying to keep her still and calm is impossible at the moment . I ended up scratching her a little on this mornings insulin where she was fighting staying still and it broke my heart
I can’t eat, as I feel I’m constantly on the clock watch until the next time I have to inject her, work out foods etc. - and I almost dread her wanting a snack because I have to do it again, please tell me this is normal and I’m not just weak, please tell me this gets easier?
My partner goes back to work Tuesday and I honestly don’t know how I’m going to manage giving her insulin, as he helps keep her still .
I’m sorry this is such a negative post ❤️