gll
Well-Known Member
- Relationship to Diabetes
- Type 2
- Pronouns
- She/Her
Hi Emma.
Barbara is right, you are the first one to try and help and support other folks so you just sit down right there lady and accept the mountain of hugs and love dammit
I think a lot of people can identify with the idea of eating perfectly "normal" food feeling like self harm and its one of those mind traps that it is hard to escape.
I went through a period where I was terrified to eat anything all day if my bg was high as I don't have the tools to bring it down beyond normal meds, so by not eating anything with any carbs it would eventually come back to a somewhat acceptable level.
What that did for me was give me a much improved hba1c and a bigger fight to get meds adjusted since on paper I'm doing great.
I can wake up on 7-8 on a good day but often sitting in low-high teens by the end of the day. I hate it but "helping" myself too much just means a much much bigger challenge in the long run to get the right treatment regime, whatever that is for me.
I can and accept that sugar is off the table and a lot of rubbish carbs are too for the most part but I need to find a diet and medication balance that is compatible with my life in the long term. Do I hate seeing high bg on the meter - yep, does it make me want to not eat anything - yep, but my end goal has to be more than day to day.
I need to be able to not be terrified of being anywhere but home at a mealtime if my choice is limited. I have literally been last min out for lunch and gone to the butchers to get some sliced cooked meat and nibbled that before going in and sitting with a coffee in a cafe instead of having a nice lunch with friends. I need to not feel guilty for having a rare treat with my family and friends.
I applaud anyone who can healthily commit to low carb and manage things that way for life. Like top respect. I'm just not one of those people who can sustain it.
I am not telling you this for support or sympathy from you or anyone else but you need to know that we often have our own mental battles with food since diabetes is on the table regardless of whatever type it is. So when I say I know/understand how hard it was for you to eat cereal yesterday, I really do know how hard it can be (and I'm sure others do too).
Our fight might be different to yours in lots of ways but I want you to really know that it is okay to talk about it, that you aren't alone and the responses aren't just lip service, they are filled with love, understanding and support for you.
it is hard for me to talk about stuff too and here is about the only place I do (and even that is hard) so without trying to sound condescending, I'm proud of you for being so open and honest. Keep doing it
Barbara is right, you are the first one to try and help and support other folks so you just sit down right there lady and accept the mountain of hugs and love dammit
I think a lot of people can identify with the idea of eating perfectly "normal" food feeling like self harm and its one of those mind traps that it is hard to escape.
I went through a period where I was terrified to eat anything all day if my bg was high as I don't have the tools to bring it down beyond normal meds, so by not eating anything with any carbs it would eventually come back to a somewhat acceptable level.
What that did for me was give me a much improved hba1c and a bigger fight to get meds adjusted since on paper I'm doing great.
I can wake up on 7-8 on a good day but often sitting in low-high teens by the end of the day. I hate it but "helping" myself too much just means a much much bigger challenge in the long run to get the right treatment regime, whatever that is for me.
I can and accept that sugar is off the table and a lot of rubbish carbs are too for the most part but I need to find a diet and medication balance that is compatible with my life in the long term. Do I hate seeing high bg on the meter - yep, does it make me want to not eat anything - yep, but my end goal has to be more than day to day.
I need to be able to not be terrified of being anywhere but home at a mealtime if my choice is limited. I have literally been last min out for lunch and gone to the butchers to get some sliced cooked meat and nibbled that before going in and sitting with a coffee in a cafe instead of having a nice lunch with friends. I need to not feel guilty for having a rare treat with my family and friends.
I applaud anyone who can healthily commit to low carb and manage things that way for life. Like top respect. I'm just not one of those people who can sustain it.
I am not telling you this for support or sympathy from you or anyone else but you need to know that we often have our own mental battles with food since diabetes is on the table regardless of whatever type it is. So when I say I know/understand how hard it was for you to eat cereal yesterday, I really do know how hard it can be (and I'm sure others do too).
Our fight might be different to yours in lots of ways but I want you to really know that it is okay to talk about it, that you aren't alone and the responses aren't just lip service, they are filled with love, understanding and support for you.
it is hard for me to talk about stuff too and here is about the only place I do (and even that is hard) so without trying to sound condescending, I'm proud of you for being so open and honest. Keep doing it