6.8
Off to the police station in a couple of hours to give a video recorded interview about my being raped by a stranger when I was 17.
Understandably my BP is sky high and my emotions are a little frazzled.
Curiously though there’s also a strange sense of calm alongside the anxiety. It’s like there’s part of my subconscious saying that the physiological responses are fine and that the whole thing today will be fine even if it’s tough.
I slept well yesterday too.
Afterwards I’ve got options to do whatever I feel I need to do for balance. I can head out for a long walk, I can veg watching Netflix, I can call Survivors U.K., I can do some gardening. I can do any combination of the above.
I’m not working today or tomorrow so I have time for the emotional and psychological impact of revisiting the memories, the minute details, the fear to wash over me and I’ll be ok.