Thanks so much for the full stop benny, I’m really touched
Thanks so much for the full stop benny, I’m really touched
Thankyou for your lovely reply, I’m just so tired of it I think I just got to a point where I couldn’t take anymore. I do need help, I feel like I try but never get anywhere xxHi Emma, sorry that you are going through this bad situation. It's absolutely normal that you are not feeling very cheerful giving that you are exhausted and not getting the treatment that you need. I think it was a good idea for you to open up here as you are getting some ideas and, more important, emotional support. I agree with @rebrascora that you don't need to wait until you are feeling better, when you are low is probably when you more need to reach out.
People who have replied before know way more than me about diabetes, disordered eating and the healthcare system, so I'm not getting in there. But I was going to suggest you may try to get some support for the mental health side of all this. I was thinking something like calling a helpline to start with, thought I @ColinUK has given a more "hardcore" approach. It could be worth a shot!
Thing is I always tell myself that I should be able to cope, almost feels weak. Which I know is stupidBit of a left field suggestion this but have you considered using other things to help jump the queue and get the help you need?
I’m thinking that you take the mental health strain of the diabetes and go to A&E. You ask to see the duty psychiatrist because you can’t cope with everything and you get it all out in the open.
You’ll likely be given mental health support as well as bumped up the list for diabetes/endo care and support at the same time.
You’re definitely not weak!Thing is I always tell myself that I should be able to cope, almost feels weak. Which I know is stupid
Aw, it's a shame you are not getting the mental health support eitherThankyou for your lovely reply, I’m just so tired of it I think I just got to a point where I couldn’t take anymore. I do need help, I feel like I try but never get anywhere xx
I know what your saying makes total sense. It just seems like it’s something I’m incapable of doing. I had a very small bowl of cereal the other week, I told myself that my sugars would be fine and when they wernt I ended up on the treadmill, which I think actually made it worse. It’s like I have this overwhelming fear of them going high. When I was first diagnosed the highest reading I got was 28 but I got more and more obsessed, a 10 now would upset me far more than that 28 did back then.I’d honestly do the same as others have suggested, and eat more carbs then if you see high bgs, either show those to your team and they’ll see you need to try more medications, or if you have insulin then use it and show them why you’re using it.
I bet you are feeling so much better tonight after taking that first step towards help. Well done! You have my admiration. Now we want to hear that you have heeded the advice.Ahh Thankyou so much, I’m overwhelmed by the responses I have received today xx
I know what your saying makes total sense. It just seems like it’s something I’m incapable of doing. I had a very small bowl of cereal the other week, I told myself that my sugars would be fine and when they wernt I ended up on the treadmill, which I think actually made it worse. It’s like I have this overwhelming fear of them going high. When I was first diagnosed the highest reading I got was 28 but I got more and more obsessed, a 10 now would upset me far more than that 28 did back then.
I don’t know if you read any of my ramblings I’ve mentioned my own mental health (depression, anxiety, PTSD) and I totally get that “I should be able to cope” thought. It often goes hand in hand with “yeah but other people have it much worse than me”.Thing is I always tell myself that I should be able to cope, almost feels weak. Which I know is stupid
I’m reading this backwards hence my responding to this post now.Thankyou so much for the advice, I did have a full blown break down around feb last year and was put on the list for mental health services but as of yet I’ve heard nothing. I have sought out my own treatment but stopped that a while back as she just wanted to talk about my childhood and home life when I specifically wanted help with my health anxiety. My lipids are not too bad, 5.4 for total but all others were really good. So you might be right about putting that on the back burner for now xx
I have been down the private route a couple of times both endos said it would not be something that they could do to take over my care and that I need to work with my own team. I was gutted xxI hope you are not too sad. If you have a little money you could get a private diagnosis? I had to do that to get my tachycardia diagnosed. Now back in NHS but it was worth £300 to go to spire hospital and get a proper doctoring.
Well done Emma - we can't all physically help, but we are with you in spirit. Your graph doesn't surprise me and wouldn't alarm me (mine is frequently like that); big leap up after such a long time for you on very low carbs would seem normal to me. I'd try a tiny bit of insulin now to contain this and as part of the experimenting that others have suggested. Stay strong and keep posting.Thankyou Colin, for your honesty and your time. Yes I was referred after a breakdown in feb 21. If I’m honest I’ve had some pretty rough years and my diagnosis was the cherry on top. Then my doctor decided I must have cancer as I wasn’t ticking any boxes. Her exact words were we do not think you have diabetes we think you have raised blood sugars due to cancer we suspect pancreatic. I passed the phone to my husband and she repeated it to him. I felt like all the blood had drained from my body and that was it, I was gone. I went through lots of tests over a few weeks and don’t really remember much about that time. The diazepam meant I would just sit and stare for hours. My test were all clear but I developed a severe phobia of doctors, I even switched surgery because I couldn’t go in the building where it all happened. I am slowly beginning to realise that overcoming the mental aspect is going to be harder than dealing with the diabetes. I have however made a start, it might seem silly but it’s a massive big deal for me, I ate 20g of cereal this morning with no treadmill may I add, photo evidence included