A few of you have messaged me asking if im ok, well here we go.
We went last Wednesday for my growth scan and check up, i was 34 and 2 days. Scan went fine, she was doing really well, growth had gone up a little but nothing to worry about.
Went to clinic , i asked for a date for induction so they started to sort that out. Check my belly and everything all ok. Shown them how swollen my feet, legs ankles where and the fact my shoes where starting to cut my feet, which they weren't when i left work 2 hours before. They tested my pee, plus protein 3, not good, blood pressure very high. They gave me the date of 24th 1.40pm, so we where happy, told me they wanted to see me again after the diabetic nurse had seen me, to check my blood pressure again. We thought all was ok.
Went to see Nurse, told her about all the crazy hypos and the fact i was still needing to drop my insulin, more and more every day. She got the consultant in again, and they said that i needed to keep an eye on it and that i shouldn't go back to pre-pregnancy amounts when i have had the baby, they wrote this done in my notes.
We went back to the waiting room and where told they where keeping me in for check ups, and that it could be pre-eclampsia and if it was they would have to induce me.
They took me up the the maternity ward, and where checking bp and blood sugars every few hours, lots of blood tests. I started to feel pretty rough. High bp, and pulse, lots of meds to try and sort them out. I got no sleep. They sent nathaniel home at 9, so it was hell on my own.
They moved me across to labour ward about 7 am Thursday, man i was scared. They put me in a hugh room, a high dependency room, i didnt leave it until sunday i think. the doctor cam about 8ish and said i would need to be induced. They put me on sliding scale, and cofactor. They werent letting me eat or take fluids, incase i needed a section. I couldnt get out of bed. and didnt until the sunday, and then only in a chair. Steroids for her lungs.
I cant really remember now which day is which or what happened. I had about 9 different drips/machines plugged into me. It took a while for the first induction pessuary to work, so they gave me another one later on in the day, and that didnt do to much, they put me on a drip to speed up contractions which started them off, they really where starting to worry/hurry it up. My whole body was swollen, my legs where as big as my waist, with the bump. Blood pressure crazy even with the drips and stuff. Think it was friday at this point. I dont even know if i knew what day it was then.
Nathaniel and my mum could stay with me the whole time, so they did. My mum was amazing, she kept massaging my legs. God i love her more than ever. And now im crying.
I was so tired by this point as i hadnt had any sleep since tuesday night, and i had been at work on the wednesday.
They examined me and the Dr was shocked i was swollen down there too, and she said its the worse she had ever seen, and that the baby might not even be able to get out. And a section might be needed as it might not be possible. Think friday morning i was about 3 cm, that must have been when they started the contraction drip. I was in lots of pain . Gas and air really helpful. When i got to about 5 cm in the afternoon, they asked if i wanted a epidural, and i was worried id loose all feelings down below. He said i would still be able to feel to push, that it would just take the pain away. The dr that did it was amazing, i could hardly sit up it killed to do so, but i did just so he could do it. And boy was it worth it, it helped so much. I dont even know when i started to get contractions, i do know Nathaniel was falling asleep watching the simpsons on 4, so about 5ish, haha. I do love him.
They had to pin pop my vagina to get the fluid out because it was so swollen there would have been no way she would have gotten out, took them more than half an hour, it didnt feel too painful it was just like somebody doing cross stitch down there haha. she had a big needle thing pointy thing. Its scaring me now, didnt then. And now it bloody hurts.
After this they got closer and closer together, i was 9 and half cm so they said it was fine for me to start pushing. Think i only pushed for 30mins maybe.
Just before this point, my dad arrives in warrington from london he had drove down, after my aunt had explained to him what pre-eclampsia is. Nathaniel askes the midwife if he could just come and see me for ten mins, so my dad was there, he was crying, i have never seen him cry and that made me start so i couldnt look at him. He told me he loved me aswell which is wonderful but i was abit busy to be able to cry. (crying again now) While he was there i said i needed to push, so i started and they let him stay.
I had Nathaniel and my mum and dad, they spilt up when i was 8. Its mad, and i think quite beautiful that he was there, me and dad both owe nathaniel for that i think.
They had to use the forceps to get her head out because of the swelling.
They told me earlier that she would need to go to neo natal and stay in till her due date, so we where ready for that.
Once her head was out i got her out in one huge push, i thought id die, honestly i did. They past her straight to me for a cuddle and i held her for a few mins, they took her off and checked her over, i got to hold her again, she was already so beautiful, lots of black hair on her head. Looks just like her daddy. Nathaniel got to hold her and then my mum and dad, very quickly and they took her away, i didn't think we would have so long. (crying lots now).
I had 3 people down below working, stitches and the placenta they where busy for at least another half an hour, i think they gave me an injection for that. not sure cant remember anything after that. Not sure if it will ever come back to me, not sure if i want it to.
Shes doing so well, she was in a incubator the first night, then on a heat mat, they took her off the heat mat monday might. No problems with breathing. She had a bit of jaundice on Sunday but thats all ok now, they just had her under a blue light for a day. She just needs to get the hang on eating, shes a bit lazy and likes it through a drip, but shes doing better and better everyday, and only didnt finish her bottles yesterday because they took the amount up. They are so please with her and said she could be out in 2 weeks.
I did miss not having her when i was on the maternity ward, where other people have there babies but i know its for her own good, and they are amazing.
My diabetes is a mess, and i havent been able to express as much as i have wanted to because i was so poorly afterwards, but its better being at home, easyier to get everything sorted.
Bit weird being home without her but we have loads left to sort as we werent ready.
I think thats it.
Oh and the good bits. She was born at 8.32 on friday 7th Jan, weighing 6lb4.
And we have called her Jemima Campbell
When i work out how to upload photos i will do.
Not sure if this link will work, worth a try
http://www.facebook.com/photo.php?pid=7927199&l=07c2626a34&id=734815090.