Hi there. I have only just joined forum today and saw your post. Hope you have sorted things by now? I used a pump for 2 years and came off it because I had a few episodes that nearly drove me into insanity when my BS would rise very quickly. It is scary and please don;t think you are the only one or that your fear is irrational. I have gone back on my pump as only when you are faced with hypos, being told you cannot drive and ending up putting 2 stone in weight from having to eat to keep up with Lantus do you realise that whilst not perfect a pump is your best option! Always remember your pump is a machine and as such is never full proof - this is the biggest lesson you have to learn and then come to terms with. I wanted full proof, and to be honest I read pump forums and thought I would have a pancreas albiet attached outside my body. The way I look at it now is the pump works on most days and we all have Bad hair days so why shouldn't my little friend my pump?! I now just take a pen with me when I go out and about and if all else fails I would just have an injection and sort the pump out when I got home. I have also had to accept that when I get a bad infection I have to have some lantus to help the pump out for a day or so. Overall, the pump isn't the miracle that perhaps I thought (or read about) but it has improved my control, outlook and quality of life. You will be fine and you will find out what works for you and what is theory. We are all different and the pump will do different things for us but we all benefit overall. Good luck and if you need to ask anything else just give us a shout. 🙂