The diabetic fairy blues

[gail2]

Does anyone ever get what I shall call the diabetic blues, you know the i dont wanna do this anymore, i dont wanna be carefull what i have to eat, the I DONT WANT IT ANYMORE. im a bit depressed at moment and im so pis**ed off with the diabeties. im taking my meds/insulin dont get me wrong but i have had enough no matter what i do my bs is not behaving my habc1 has gone up
anyone for a good group cry and hug about it?
gail
PS im not even going to tell you where i would like to put that fairys wand😱
gail

 

[margie]

I get like that - been a bit like that this week. I had to reduce my basal before bed as I was convinced I was having nighttime hypos. So then I started with not brilliant values at any time. Experimenting I discovered that at 3 my levels start to rise dramatically. As I believe that my basal does not last 24 hours - I moved the morning to lunch and today things seem a bit better.

It does my head in some times (to use a local expression).

Gail remember that your HbA1c is the average over 3 months and a lot happened in those 3 months that could have caused the increase. You'll get better - get a cushion call it diabetes and thump it - do you think that might help ?

 

[Northerner]

I know what you mean Gail - been feeling that way myself this past week. Even my injections seem to have started hurting! Good idea margie - perhaps we should all be issued with diabetes cushions at diagnosis! 🙂

 

[margie]

Even my injections seem to have started hurting!

That's strange I had a few weeks were my injections started hurting then they stopped - I wonder if there are some not quite right needles about.

 

[AnnW]

Yes, me too. I hate to admit that I have had such a bad few days that I had a spell wondering who, if anyone , would miss me.
I take my meds, I am a 'good girl' but i still feel so guilty when I eat some things - not cakes/ chips etc- I had a sandwich at lunch in a pub , it was huge - wholemeal , no butter but huge . I pinched a couple of my husband's chips but , you all know what I was thinking !
I get so fed up .Let's have a group hug? {{{hug}}} 🙂

 

[Northerner]

Yes, me too. I hate to admit that I have had such a bad few days that I had a spell wondering who, if anyone , would miss me.
I take my meds, I am a 'good girl' but i still feel so guilty when I eat some things - not cakes/ chips etc- I had a sandwich at lunch in a pub , it was huge - wholemeal , no butter but huge . I pinched a couple of my husband's chips but , you all know what I was thinking !
I get so fed up .Let's have a group hug? {{{hug}}} 🙂

Big hugs to you too {{{Ann}}} We have to be a bit naughty sometimes, so please don't be too hard on yourself.

 

[Lauren]

I'm totally having a day like that today - I don't want to be Diabetic!!! Why can't it go away?!!!

Although I'm incredibly grateful for my pump I hate changing my set and getting all tangled up in the tubing! And getting to the shower and realising that I haven't taken it off!

 

[Kim23]

I understand that feeling too Gail!! I've had a pretty bad week so far with my bm's not behaving, but you'll get through it 🙂 having a good ol'cry about it does help to start and then do something that makes you feel happy - a walk in forest or cinema with friends/partner/family gives u a boost.

 

[Blythespirit]

I have times like that too. I get overwhelmed by it all and wish it would go away. I also get irrationally sad about things that don't really matter. For e.g. a couple of weeks ago I was watching TV and an Ad came on for Dysneyland. Well I sat and sobbed my heart out because we'd never been able to afford to take our 3 kids there. I'm glad I was on my own or my lot would have wondered what was the matter with mum now. My coping mechanism is at an all time low too.

And recently with all the high BG's and having to fight to get what I need. It made me feel even more worthless as it seemed I was being told I didn't matter. Although I'd be the first to disagree if anyone else on here said it, I felt (and still feel if I'm being honest) a bit of a failure.

So budge up please and make room for me in the group hug. (((hugs to you all))) XXXXX

 

[Northerner]

Big hugs for you Faith {{{{Faith}}}}

 

[Sheilagh1958]

Big Hugs to everyone. It is depressing sometimes when you think we have got this stupid disease for ever but hey hoy 🙂

 

[alisonz]

Well you summed that up for me nicely Gail xxx Been feeling really yucky this last week and well and truly fallen off the wagon. I now have a stinking cold and throat is sore, last thing I want to do today is go to work. I'm assuming this feeling will eventually go away?

 

[Monica]

Yes, I get that feeling too. I know, you're all screaming: but you're not diabetic!!

When Carol's levels are high, I get all uptight and think it's either my fault or Carol has eaten somthing without injecting. I try my hardest to do/get Carol to do the right things, but I can't get past Carol's resistance against some of them.

I can understand her resistance, but it drives me mad! I'd like to let go a little, but I'm too scared that if I let go, so will she. I'm forever wondering if she would take charge.

I wish I had a magic wand.....

 

[Natalie123]

Sending big hugs to everyone xxx I am feeling a bit down at the moment too, not all related to the diabetes though. The weather is getting warmer so the summer clothes have come out, but it is so depressing to see the multiple purple and green bruises down my arms ... and I can't stop putting on weight so everything is too small for me again ...

Yesterday I decided to just cover up but I was out birdwatching all day, and by the end of the afternoon I was soooo depressed about my diabetes and feeling really run down, I am only 23 and compared to everyone else who are much older than me, I just have no energy! I felt like screaming and took it all out on by boyfriend who is wonderful and put up with it very well. Now I look back on it I think a lot of it was probably heat/ sun stroke so I am going to be more careful today!

As for the painful injections I get this when I am hot, I think my skin toughens and I can't get the needle in - almost like having a blunt set.

Lots more hugs xxx

 

[Natalie123]

Yes, I get that feeling too. I know, you're all screaming: but you're not diabetic!!

When Carol's levels are high, I get all uptight and think it's either my fault or Carol has eaten somthing without injecting. I try my hardest to do/get Carol to do the right things, but I can't get past Carol's resistance against some of them.

I can understand her resistance, but it drives me mad! I'd like to let go a little, but I'm too scared that if I let go, so will she. I'm forever wondering if she would take charge.

I wish I had a magic wand.....

Hi Monica, I'm not screaming at you, I think you must be going through a lot too, I know my Mum found it very hard to cope when I was diagnosed and for a few years after, even my granddad worries when I go to visit now xx Don't be too hard on yourself, it sounds like you are doing brilliantly 🙂

 

[squidge63]

I think everyone with diabetes feels like this regularly gail, it wouldn't be normal if we didn't.. I go through spells where I can't be bothered doing my blood tests, when I know that the dietician, Dr and DSN want me to test more during the day, I then take my insulin without knowing what my sugars were, stupid I know. Somedays I hate being diabetic and other times it doesn't worry me. I like the sound of the Diabetic cushion to attack lol

 

[cath12134]

Does anyone ever get what I shall call the diabetic blues, you know the i dont wanna do this anymore, i dont wanna be carefull what i have to eat, the I DONT WANT IT ANYMORE. im a bit depressed at moment and im so pis**ed off with the diabeties. im taking my meds/insulin dont get me wrong but i have had enough no matter what i do my bs is not behaving my habc1 has gone up
anyone for a good group cry and hug about it?
gail
PS im not even going to tell you where i would like to put that fairys wand😱
gail

OK BIG GROUP HUG!!!
I get fed up too, the constant testing, thinking about food - having the eat when I'm not hungry, juggling hypo;s and high blood results...blah!

 

[gail2]

heres the madam that diabetic fairy thats responsible for it all.Anyone spots her hand me my gun😱

 

[AlisonM]

I certainly do Gail. All the time! In fact I had a run in with the diabetic fairy this very weekend when I just wanted it all to go away. We went out for dinner to Pizza Express on Saturday for my neighbour's birthday (her choice) and, as I was already running a bit high, I couldn't have pizza. I LOVE their pizzas! It's maybe a bit childish of me, but I really wanted a timeout so I could have pizza and a dessert. But I know I can't have one and I know the cost if I had indulged, if my numbers had been better I'd have had some and felt guilty about that instead.

I'm sick of having holes in my fingers and other places, of testing and injecting and taking pills for this, that and the other. I want a holiday, I want to be 'normal' again. I want to scream!

I'm in for that BIG GROUP HUG.

 

[gail2]

I certainly do Gail. All the time! In fact I had a run in with the diabetic fairy this very weekend when I just wanted it all to go away. We went out for dinner to Pizza Express on Saturday for my neighbour's birthday (her choice) and, as I was already running a bit high, I couldn't have pizza. I LOVE their pizzas! It's maybe a bit childish of me, but I really wanted a timeout so I could have pizza and a dessert. But I know I can't have one and I know the cost if I had indulged, if my numbers had been better I'd have had some and felt guilty about that instead.

I'm sick of having holes in my fingers and other places, of testing and injecting and taking pills for this, that and the other. I want a holiday, I want to be 'normal' again. I want to scream!

I'm in for that BIG GROUP HUG.

how brave to go there i would not have been able to resist PIZZA mmmm i fancy it now