Hi Corascate,
First of all don't be so worried, it has been diagnosed and is being treated, it is being controlled and so the next step is down to you.
It is a mine field of info out there, I and I am so confused at times, I am also very new to this and I'm so confused about the carbs and all that entails, no clue in reading blood sugar, and am learning every day.
BUT I see this, me personally, from a different point of view.
For me its a new begining.
I'm leaving, the sadness, denial, comfort eating, painful past behind and taking this by both hands!
I suspected I had it for a while, I was told I was prediabetic and thought no probs, I just cut down on the wrong food and up the good food. But life takes over, I pushed advice I had been told, to the back of my mind, and carried on.
Stupid, irresponsible, yes I was.
This is all my fault, yes of course it is.
I should have taken so much more care.
But it is what it is, and I'm here now, and now I am facing it face to face, and am now going to get this sorted once and for all.
I needed a good kick up the backside for a few years.
I'm not depressed or even annoyed but I am very disappointed in me.
I know I am better than this, taking tablets, possible future health issues and all because I didn't really think I would get diabetes, I chose to put my head in the sand, and so here I am, wake up call.... hello....
So all the excuses and reasons and blanking and ignoring and everything in between is history now.
Today, a brand new day and a brand new start (well the day I was told) has just begun for me. I feel more in control than I have in years. Now its my time.
I have taken this and used it as a positive, I refuse to have any negativity based on being told I am diabetic, end of.
I have so much to learn, appointments are coming in for this and that, but it has to be for the better and that is my goal.
Chin up, we are all here some years of experience, some,like myself, newbies but all with an understanding.
Hugs and love x