Hi Lou and welcome from me too.
I am relatively new to Diabetes myself and just started injecting insulin in April. What type of insulin have you been given? We all understand how scary it is particularly at first and those first few hypos when you get them make you feel pretty vulnerable. I find it quite difficult to match my insulin to my food a lot of the time because my body doesn't seem to respond in a predictable way so I prefer to eat a mostly very low carb diet which reduces the amount and number of times I need to inject insulin and as a result the risk of having a hypo. Once you get the hang of eating very low carb it can be quite enjoyable especially if you increase your fat intake to make up for the calories you are not getting from sugar and starch. You do have to be a bit organised though, which is what I struggle most with.
I used to be a really heavy sugar addict, so this diet change has been a huge thing for me but I am developing new tastes for other things which I can safely eat instead..... I feel quite proud of the fact that I eat (and enjoy) olives and Gorgonzola cheese and antipasti as snacks.... makes me feel very grown up and sophisticated!! I very much agree with
@zuludog that it is important to focus on and enjoy what you can eat and find new things to add to them and put out of mind all the things that are no longer good for you. Being diagnosed just before Easter my first thought was that a lifetime is a long time when you are never going to eat another Cadbury's Cream Egg!! How frivolous is that!! It was not helpful at all but I made it through Easter without any chocolate (except maybe the odd square of 70% when I was really desperate although thankfully that doesn't lend itself to guzzling like milk choc does) and I just don't crave it anymore. Now my snacks are a pot of olives and feta or a chunk of cheese or a handful of brazil nuts and very occasionally a bag of pork scratchings
😳 and I actually really savour all of those treats and don't feel deprived that I can't have the other stuff. The silver lining to a hypo though is that I get to have a tiny ration of something sweet, usually a couple of prunes these days rather than sweets as I do love dried fruit, but having kicked my sugar habit I now have control and one or two is enough rather than eating the whole bag which I would have done in the past, be it sweets or fruit. I can't begin to imagine how many calories in sugar I was consuming prior to diagnosis, but I am eating a good 95% less now and those are almost all natural sugars in dairy and fruit.
We are all here to support and learn from each other. We have all felt like you at some stage with this and will occasionally struggle again at times in the future, so feel free to ask for help and/or support on any aspect or as others have said, just have a good rant if it will help.... we all understand the need to let off steam sometimes.
Stay safe and keep us posted with your progress.