my son will be 25 at the end of October and has been married for nearly a year. 6 years ago after feeling a bit under the weather he woke up one morning. his face was so badly swollen you could not make out his features. he was diagnosed with kidney failure. since then and up until the present day, he has had a kidney transplant which failed sadly. cancer. several bouts of pneumonia leading to life threatening comas and is now on dialysis. I have a terrible fear of waking up one morning with something being terribly wrong. I would rather die than be terminally ill. he never complains and I do not know how on earth he copes.