sammeyrach89
New Member
- Relationship to Diabetes
- Parent of person with diabetes
Sorry for the long post but I need to get this off my chest. Hi everyone on the 8th November my little boy just turned six was rushed to hospital late at night. 24 hours later I was told we nearly lost him as he had suffered a sever DKA and his body had had almost completley shut down. His veins had collapsed he had an emergency Iv and they then spent the next 36 hours collecting blood from a finger prick as they were unable to get a propper cannula in. He had become completely delirious as though he was high on god knows what and his knees and elbows had turned purple. The next day I was given the pack to read but I couldnt bring my self to read it untill the day before we came out of high dependency. It still hasn't sunk in. I am scared and overwhelmed and tired I feel the same way I did the day we first brought him home and it hit me I was responsible for keeping him alive. I live with little ones dad however he works shifts so I am basically dealing with it all on my own. We have just started carb counting like literally on day 2 and I dont know why but I have just literally broke down. Sat in the middle of my stone kitchen floor sobbing. I feel so sick .. there have been a couple of instances since coming home whereby I fed him before I gave his insuline (remembered after a few bites). I dont even know why I'm writing this because I have no question ask but I just feel so alone. My partner wasnt at the hospital and we have still not really spoke about it and I thought I was ok and I know I'm.being selfish because he is my little baby but I'm finding it all really overwhelming and I dont know what to do. I suffer with anxiety and depression as it is and I'm now on the highest dose increased upon his diagnosis but im really not strong enough and I dont know what to do