hi Sarahcan, I am a newbie too and have found this site really helpful as i too am trying to understand what my diagnosis means to my lifestyle. I was interested when you said you were in denial - i too found it a shock and it has made me search for ways to be in remission, although i will have to accept that i am diabetic and will always have to maintain my weight loss, low carb diet and exercise to keep my blood sugar in range. I have a finger prick meter and am using it to test various scenarios such as what happens if i eat fish and chips, or what effect does a 30 minute walk have on my blood sugars. The other thing you mentioned was the My Sugr app which i downloaded a week ago and am using it to record my readings. Whilst it doesn't replace an official HbA1c reading from your doctor, the site does offer to estimate your HbA1c after inputting 21 entries over 7 days. I have one more entry to make today to see what the site estimates for me. I was 50 at diagnosis and don't go till November for my official blood tests but I have made a lot of changes to my diet and exercise as i started with a bmi of 39, which is high, and weight loss seems to be key in controlling blood sugar. It helps to keep me motivated to see proof that methods i am using are working.