It sounds as if going on to Insulin is not that bad a thing. My medication is being messed about all over the place at the moment, and I'm fed up with it all.
I was diagnosed in Nov 08 and started with 1 x 500mg Metformin a day. This was increased gradually to 4 a day by March 09, due to not being effective enough. Since I've been on 2 g a day I have suffered almost constant diarrhoea. The doc said it would settle down. It has not. Also the problem has stopped me from getting my walking exercise due to too many embarrassing events away from home. So my BS levels are getting worse, and now my cholesterol levels are getting worse too!! I can't win cos The foods that are good for the cholesterol send my BS sky high, and the protein foods that keep the BS down are no good for the cholesterol. I hate salad, and fruit masses up my stomach acids, so there's not much I can eat without causing trouble somewhere!!!
When I last saw the hospital specialist they decided that sugar levels were still unsatisfactory and recommended going on to 3 x 850mg a day. My doctor was not happy to do this while I still had the diarrhoea trouble, so have carried on at 4 x 500mg a day, but it's not working. I am always about 8 - 9 first thing in the morning, even when I have fasted for a blood test! And usually about 10 - 11 two hours after a meal. The lowest reading I have ever had was 6, never managed to get below that, even with missing a meal!
Anyway, another doctor has now decided that I MUST go onto the 3 x 850mg a day, and has also prescribed Immodium EVERY DAY for the foreseeable future to stop the inevitable worsening diarrhoea problem!!!
I was already depressed before I was diagnosed diabetic, and all this has made me so much worse! The constant nagging by the medics to eat correctly (like, WHAT do you suggest?) is pushing me to think "S*d it! Whatever I eat it will be wrong so i might as well eat cakes and sweets!" Living sure isn't much fun these days so, if I die it's no big deal any more. I am not saying I am suicidal, just that I don't much care any more. I can't get excited about a life lived on vegetables (not without cheese anyway!).
I am just totally fed up with the whole business.