Thank you everyone for your replies and support. This has got to me quite a bid and I am now trying to be positive but admittedly finding it difficult. It just feels like I'm banging my head against a brick wall at the moment, I find it hard because I kept things under control really well since diagnosis, until recently.
I was talking to a colleague on Friday and mentioned my results and he said "well, you took a risk having your second daughter, you shouldn't really have done that, should you."!!! I disagree as my control and HbA1c during both pregnancies was in the 5% range, not something he would understand though. He also said "eyesight is something diabetics have to worry about, but then you know that". Prat was one word I was thinking.
Sorry, that turned into more of a rant!