I've posted before about how down I get about my inability to recover from illness. Whenever I get any sort of illness that makes me vomit, once I get dehydrated I get even more sick and end up in hospital on a drip every single time. I didn't used to be like this when I was younger but I think my body is weaker now from me not looking after my diabetes as a teenager, even though my Hba1c is 7.4% now.
So anyway all of last week I had crippling diarrhea and on Thursday I started vomiting too. By Friday I was in hospital with severe dehydration. I was in until Sunday. The doctor said I probably had some form of viral gastroenteritis and the diarrhea caused me to become dehydrated, which lead to me vomiting and being even more ill.
I know he's right because It's happened so many times before - the more dehydrated I am, the more I vomit. But it doesn't even make sense - is my body determined to kill itself? Will I ever be able to live a normal life and recover from illness by myself at home? My veins are even collapsing from havings IVs in them all the time.
Just feeling a little sorry for myself. If I get this ill from a little bug how can I ever do big things that a normal woman could like have a baby?
So anyway all of last week I had crippling diarrhea and on Thursday I started vomiting too. By Friday I was in hospital with severe dehydration. I was in until Sunday. The doctor said I probably had some form of viral gastroenteritis and the diarrhea caused me to become dehydrated, which lead to me vomiting and being even more ill.
I know he's right because It's happened so many times before - the more dehydrated I am, the more I vomit. But it doesn't even make sense - is my body determined to kill itself? Will I ever be able to live a normal life and recover from illness by myself at home? My veins are even collapsing from havings IVs in them all the time.