I have been so stupid....................

[newbie Tracey]

Rather than type out a long winded excuse.....here goes some honesty...I drank a half bottle of vodka tonight as I rebelled against T2. When I needed a friend they were "busy" and could not spare me their time....a whole few mins..well *** them....when they need to talk to someone at 2AM cause their boyfriend snogged someone else they can go ****** themselves...sorry for the swearing guys..I thought I was coping but of course I am struggling as there is no help from the Dr's and I have suffered from false hypo's and anxiety and as one who is usually in control for myself and others suddenly becoming the one who needs help ......well no one knows what the hell to do inc me!!!

 

[stephknits]

Take care of yourself Tracey. Remember this forum is here for you. Start again tomorrow, everyone of us have made mistakes and have rubbish days.

 

[Diabeticliberty]

Tell you what then, here's some honesty in return. Rebelling against your diabetes with half a bottle of vodka absolutely will not beat it. Drunk or stone cold sober you will still be diabetic. As regards your friends letting you down? Well that is quite a different subject. The thing is though they probably do not or do not want to understand your condition. This is why you really need to fully understand it and how to cope with it for yourself. If you are suffering from anxiety, please believe me I don't wish to speak down to you or be in any way condescending but I know what anxiety is like as I have had bouts of it now for some years. I like to drink, probably a bit too much some times if I am completely honest. I do know however that it has never helped my own bouts of anxiety and I don't think that it will help yours either. Hypo's real or false can be very unpleasant experiences. We can discuss that with you and maybe help you work through some solutions. If you feel that you are not coping and want to discuss some more then talk about it. All here will listen and try to help you.


By the way, you don't really sound stupid to me 🙂

 

[Jonsi]

Hi Tracey... I understand your frustration. Diabetes is a bitch of an illness. It is a snide, unforgiving, sneaky, horrible condition that affects everyone on this forum, some directly, some indirectly but the effects are real whichever.
Perhaps downing half a bottle of vodka isn't the smartest of moves but hey, we've all done stupid things.
We all get down too (I'm on meds to help get my head right as well as trying to get to grips with insulin) but this forum is full of helpful advice and it's also a place to laugh, cry and rant about your diabetes (maybe without the language tho 😉).
Keep going, it'll become easier in time but remember that you're not alone with your diabetes any more.

 

[weecee]

One positive from today is that when your bg is up the spout tomorrow you will know why. Every day we learn something new. Take care of yourself

 

[Martin Canty]

Though I don't condone the language I do feel your pain...... Exacerbated by the copious libations no doubt. One thing to note is that as BG is coming down it will fluctuate wildly (especially when alcohol is involved.... please don't ask me how I know) & that will cause wild mood swings.

Remember, though, you are a member of a community here & from what it looks like there is probably someone on 7/24; we are here to support & encourage one another and that includes you!!!

 

[newbie Tracey]

Thank you guys for your replies and support and please accept my apologies for the foul language, that was out of order. When I looked at my post this morning I was shocked at what I wrote.

 

[Northerner]

Thank you guys for your replies and support and please accept my apologies for the foul language, that was out of order. When I looked at my post this morning I was shocked at what I wrote.

Hi Tracey, apology accepted 😉 You clearly are feeling very down and frustrated with things - how about telling us a bit more about yourself? How long have you been diagnosed, and how did the diagnosis come about? I hope you're not feeling too hungover this morning, and that you have a brighter day ahead of you 🙂

Are you on any medication for your diabetes?

 

[SB2015]

Welcome to the forum Tracey. I hope that you have a better day today. Diabetes can be very overwhelming at times but there are. Lots of people here who can offer a lot of help in enabling you to manage the condition.

 

[newbie Tracey]

Hi. I am 47 and only diagnosed a month. I thought I had suffered from heat exhaustion while on holiday in Florida but when I had same reaction back in the UK I knew it was not that. Had an inner ear infection diagnosed but had blood tests done as well as there was something else "going on". It was then I found out im type 2. Was originally ok about it as I knew so little about it and was offered no explanation about it til I saw the diabetic nurse. I should be thankful in the fact that my diagnosis reading was only 48 and was told that im extremely lucky. And yes I am as it is managable and I was just feeling sorry for myself because I read that it is a progressive disease and it is more serious than I originally thought. I have given myself a good kick up the backside as I dont need medication or insulin but if Im that daft again may be a different story. I should know better as my dad was diagnosed with a slightly higher reading and he ignored all advice and carried on eating cakes and drinking fizzy drinks and is now on insulin.
Also absolutely no hangover this morning and my blood glucose count was 6.6 only a little higher than yesterday. But I wont be doing that again....I do not want to follow in my fathers footsteps on this one!
Thanks for the support

 

[grovesy]

Welcome and good luck!

 

[Ljc]

Welcome, it can suddenly hit you like that. Today is a new start !
The thing with diabetes is, knowledge is power , once you have learned about your particular flavour of D coz we are all different , you will mostly be in the drivers seat.
I know this may seem impossible to you now but there will come a time in the not to distant future when you will know more about your own D than some of the professionals you see.

 

[Amigo]

You're in an excellent position with a Hba1c of 48 (borderline for diagnosis) to be able to absolutely turn this around Tracey. Don't view it as something external that's being imposed in you. This is your body and with some reasonable changes to diet and a bit of exercise, you can avoid the pitfalls that you've seen your dad unfortunately fall into.

Alcohol doesn't raise my BG's and in fact we have to be careful if on meds of hypos because it can cause levels to drop. I'm diet only at the moment and whilst alcohol isn't the best strategy for dealing with stress, it does result in the liver being diverted overnight sometimes. Don't think you've done any permanent damage. Today is a new day and you can do this. Friends don't always get this. Let's be honest, I'm not sure we did before we had it but the people on here do.

You can't rebel against the diabetes Tracey because really we are just picking a fight with ourselves. Glad you're feeling calmer. Learn all you can about your 'enemy' and it will seem less scary. Best wishes, Amigo

 

[Pine Marten]

Education is the key, and I wish I'd have known half of what I know now when I was first diagnosed! As others have said, you're pretty borderline,Tracey, so you are in a good place to start over and take control. We all binge out now and again in frustration, so don't beat yourself up about it.

It's not necessarily a progressive disease either - I've been off medication since last January and am managing with diet and exercise (well, not much exercise lately in this heat ), so don't despair too much! All the best to you, and welcome to the forum 🙂

 

[Northerner]

If you don't already have it, it's worth getting your free copy of '100 things I wish I’d known about living with diabetes’ - some of our members are responsible for the tips! 🙂

 

[SB2015]

The 100 things I wish I'd known is great and it is free from DUK. Good to dip into and I still come across things in there I have forgotten about, so it is good to keep going back to.

You are sounding a lot more positive and have caught your diabetes at a good time before it has taken hold. An others have said you will become your own expert, and there are loads of people to help you on your way.

 

[Owen]

Ghost you

Hi. I am 47 and only diagnosed a month. I thought I had suffered from heat exhaustion while on holiday in Florida but when I had same reaction back in the UK I knew it was not that. Had an inner ear infection diagnosed but had blood tests done as well as there was something else "going on". It was then I found out im type 2. Was originally ok about it as I knew so little about it and was offered no explanation about it til I saw the diabetic nurse. I should be thankful in the fact that my diagnosis reading was only 48 and was told that im extremely lucky. And yes I am as it is managable and I was just feeling sorry for myself because I read that it is a progressive disease and it is more serious than I originally thought. I have given myself a good kick up the backside as I dont need medication or insulin but if Im that daft again may be a different story. I should know better as my dad was diagnosed with a slightly higher reading and he ignored all advice and carried on eating cakes and drinking fizzy drinks and is now on insulin.
Also absolutely no hangover this morning and my blood glucose count was 6.6 only a little higher than yesterday. But I wont be doing that again....I do not want to follow in my fathers footsteps on this one!
Thanks for the support

Good you could let off steam without any real damage. It is hard to say this, but try not to stress too much and make changes gradually. I became overwhelmed at diagnosis and made myself worse. I even went on a six month rebellion.