Thankyou so much for all your support; I seriously mean that. I feel terribly lonely within it all and am trying so hard not to be a pathetic martyr or feel sorry for myself or any of that stuff that sort out makes you out to be summat 'special' or ' different ' and all of that stuff y'know?? God it's hard to work through the tangled type mess of it all without wondering and worrying about the outcome(s). Yes, grovesy, they do invite you back to talk about surviving ITU...it would be good I think. I will ring them because as I'm staying at the parents until gawd knows when, I may have missed the postal invite. I can't thankyou all enough. I'm thinking of you and sending love ❤ xxxxxxxxxx