Feeling a bit urgh

[Kaylz]

Sorry guys, just here for another moan lol, thought my chest was starting to get better, seems not as in agony with it since this afternoon, starting to get slightly panicky about Christmas changing my eating routine etc, feel like I'm ready to drop I'm that tired and the appointments for next year have already started flooding in, just needed somewhere to vent that wouldn't involve a tut or anything, doesn't matter if there are no replies or views at least I've gotten it out somewhere 🙂 x

 

[New-journey]

You can always vent here and no tuts from me, just sending hugs. Sorry you are having a hard time. I hope one of those appointments is your much awaited one?

 

[Amigo]

Sorry guys, just here for another moan lol, thought my chest was starting to get better, seems not as in agony with it since this afternoon, starting to get slightly panicky about Christmas changing my eating routine etc, feel like I'm ready to drop I'm that tired and the appointments for next year have already started flooding in, just needed somewhere to vent that wouldn't involve a tut or anything, doesn't matter if there are no replies or views at least I've gotten it out somewhere 🙂 x

Kaylz get a chest X-Ray if it continues to hurt, you may have broken a rib. Not much they can do if you have but make sure it doesn’t affect your breathing or stop you cough because that’s when you get infections. Sometimes it feels worse when the bruising is coming out though, I’m sure it will be fine.
You’re over thinking again and anticipating problems you don’t have and won’t happen. I do that and my husband always says the same thing to me...Stop It!

 

[trophywench]

LOL Amigo! - just Stop it has been my usual advice to Kaylz when she's over thinking stuff - but it's much easier said, of course, than done!

I think an xray is a good idea too Kaylz.

 

[Kaylz]

You can always vent here and no tuts from me, just sending hugs. Sorry you are having a hard time. I hope one of those appointments is your much awaited one?

No still not heard a peep about seeing a psychologist, loosing hope on that front to be completely honest , they are so far for my eye check up in February and then yesterday received one for another appointment with my consultant for January, apparently Bruce wants to take that day off and come with me even though he wont have been back at work long lol xx

 

[Maz2]

Sorry to hear you are having problems. I saw someone said about "overthinking." I could get a degree in that, I am absolutely wonderful at it. My Mom's favourite phrase to me was "I was over the bridge before the foundations were built." If you are a worrier it is very difficult to change it. Advantageous of course, but difficult.

Hope things get resolved soon. A chest x-ray sounds like a good suggestion.

 

[Kaylz]

I never used to be so bad but since diagnosis I am

As for the chest x-ray I am considering it as it has gotten worse but its getting there for it that's the problem x

 

[everydayupsanddowns]

Don’t worry about Christmas food. Eat what you want to eat, don’t eat what you don’t want to eat. Sorted!

In all seriousness - good that you are mentally preparing for the challenges, but remember YOU can choose to take part in different parts of different meals so that you can join in and also feel comfortable.

 

[Kaylz]

Don’t worry about Christmas food. Eat what you want to eat, don’t eat what you don’t want to eat. Sorted!

In all seriousness - good that you are mentally preparing for the challenges, but remember YOU can choose to take part in different parts of different meals so that you can join in and also feel comfortable.

I wish it was that easy, I WANT to have dessert but its absolutely terrifying me, there is no different parts of different meals here, it's just turkey and whatever then pudding, they will be having party food in the evening but I will be having a proper meal as the carbs in sausage rolls and whatever is ridiculous, I feel so depressed that I cant have a normal Christmas and relax, that everything is based around numbers, having to count things up etc when it should be a fun day and nobody is willing to help me x

 

[grainger]

I wish it was that easy, I WANT to have dessert but its absolutely terrifying me, there is no different parts of different meals here, it's just turkey and whatever then pudding, they will be having party food in the evening but I will be having a proper meal as the carbs in sausage rolls and whatever is ridiculous, I feel so depressed that I cant have a normal Christmas and relax, that everything is based around numbers, having to count things up etc when it should be a fun day and nobody is willing to help me x

I know it’s easier to say than to do but try and think of it as just one day and if your numbers go a bit wrong it’s not the end of the world. Try and just enjoy it and relax.

What’s the dessert you want? Could always do a trial run combined with tried and tested food so you can see what effect it has (I’m all for having dessert on numerous occasions!)

X

 

[New-journey]

I wish it was that easy, I WANT to have dessert but its absolutely terrifying me, there is no different parts of different meals here, it's just turkey and whatever then pudding, they will be having party food in the evening but I will be having a proper meal as the carbs in sausage rolls and whatever is ridiculous, I feel so depressed that I cant have a normal Christmas and relax, that everything is based around numbers, having to count things up etc when it should be a fun day and nobody is willing to help me x

What is the help you would like from them? That is so hard for you that you are telling yourself such a scary story, but I understand it is so difficult to change. Hugs! 🙂

 

[everydayupsanddowns]

I know it’s easier to say than to do but try and think of it as just one day and if your numbers go a bit wrong it’s not the end of the world. Try and just enjoy it and relax.

What’s the dessert you want? Could always do a trial run combined with tried and tested food so you can see what effect it has (I’m all for having dessert on numerous occasions!)

X

That’s what I would do I think. Something sweet after a larger meal seems to have less effect on me (it all gets caught up in the other food being digested I guess). Some things are worth putting the effort in to try and try again aiming to get better numbers, but a one-off day here and there with out of range results is just all part of the rich tapestry of life with T1D.

I’ve seen either perfect results or fairly disastrous results eating the same carefully chosen foods and the same careful dosing strategies when something small like a slight change in basal needs, stress or whatever has caused some havoc. A few ragged days here and there will not immediately spell doom - it’s more about trying to more or less manage things most of the time.

Perfection isn’t possible. And Christmas Day is a decent chance to give yourself a bit more freedom IMO.

Yes it’s a bit of a pain having to try to count the numbers and keep a lid on it - not to be able to just eat whatever without worrying. But we can only play the hand we are dealt. 🙂

 

[Amigo]

I think this is part of a bigger psychological issue for Kaylz to be honest which is why she’s awaiting help. This rigidity of needing to keep control is part of an OCD condition. Please push for help with this in the New Year Kaylz if you possibly can.

 

[Kaylz]

I know it’s easier to say than to do but try and think of it as just one day and if your numbers go a bit wrong it’s not the end of the world. Try and just enjoy it and relax.

What’s the dessert you want? Could always do a trial run combined with tried and tested food so you can see what effect it has (I’m all for having dessert on numerous occasions!)

X

Its either a Strawberry Gateau or a Chocolate Yule Log not sure which yet as one is for Christmas the other New Year so not got the option to try it out before the day, (strawberry gateau was not what we wanted but my Tesco aren't selling the Salted Caramel ones this year lol) x

 

[Kaylz]

I think this is part of a bigger psychological issue for Kaylz to be honest which is why she’s awaiting help. This rigidity of needing to keep control is part of an OCD condition. Please push for help with this in the New Year Kaylz if you possibly can.

Its not just because of the OCD it's also because of the eye problem i already have that i don't want getting any worse, as for the pushing for help, i ask Paul every time i see him and he says he will get on to my consultant to try and get it brought forward then i don't hear anything more about it, i see Paul a week tomorrow so will bring it up AGAIN, if nothing then i see the consultant in January so will bring it up with him xx

 

[grainger]

Its either a Strawberry Gateau or a Chocolate Yule Log not sure which yet as one is for Christmas the other New Year so not got the option to try it out before the day, (strawberry gateau was not what we wanted but my Tesco aren't selling the Salted Caramel ones this year lol) x

Test them both on different days! You have 2 weeks until Christmas 🙂

 

[AJLang]

Lots of time to practise for Christmas 🙂

 

[Kaylz]

There's only one pudding for each occasion, cant afford to buy another to test it out unfortunately x

 

[Amigo]

There's only one pudding for each occasion, cant afford to buy another to test it out unfortunately x

Hope you can do it Kaylz because this must be very frustrating for you. I know what it’s like to live with eye worries too.
You may need to push the psychological help via your GP if Paul isn’t getting anywhere.

 

[New-journey]

Its not just because of the OCD it's also because of the eye problem i already have that i don't want getting any worse, as for the pushing for help, i ask Paul every time i see him and he says he will get on to my consultant to try and get it brought forward then i don't hear anything more about it, i see Paul a week tomorrow so will bring it up AGAIN, if nothing then i see the consultant in January so will bring it up with him xx

You have been so unlucky with your eye problems, just adds to the challenges. I do hope Paul can get you that appointment soon! Until then you are doing your best and making the changes you are is fantastic!