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[helli]

I used far too much insulin that the NHS has to fund on rubbish that is harmful to my health rather than wholesome food to nourish my body

I would still argue that you did not use far too much insulin.
I would also argue that it is important to nourish your mind as well as your body. *If* you got some enjoyment from that chocolate, it was wholesome to your mind and nourishing your overall mind and body.

I would definitely not beat yourself up for having more insulin than you usually do - if you are anything like me, it is balanced out by the days when you take less insulin than others.
I am sure the NHS budget for us to take more insulin than we do and certainly wouldn't want us rationing it as is necessary in other countries.

I appreciate you value the need to keep on the straight and narrow (and that your "Bad Girl" was slightly tongue in cheek) but please be nice to yourself and maybe change it to "fully" tongue in cheek rather than "slightly".

 

[Tdm]

Ah, but insulin only lasts so long, if you are too frugal with it it will go past the month and you'll need to throw it away....

 

[rebrascora]

Ah, but insulin only lasts so long, if you are too frugal with it it will go past the month and you'll need to throw it away....

Nice thought but I don't throw away insulin or chocolate I can assure you! Best before dates don't mean bad after, even with insulin as far as I am concerned, although my doses are now at a stage where I no longer reach 28 days even without chocolate! 😉

 

[Mumpie_olgran]

You guys are all far too kind and supportive.

Well I'm prepared to give you a slapped wrist if you think that helps keep you in the straight and narrow but from a diabetes management perspective I won't retract my comments on being impressed

 

[nonethewiser]

I abused my body and I lost self control and I used far too much insulin that the NHS has to fund on rubbish that is harmful to my health rather than wholesome food to nourish my body.... and I set my foot on that slippery slope which is dangerous to me and worst of all, I got away with it with an impressively good result....which means it is not the deterrent I would have expected or probably preferred it to be! ....... These thoughts are what helps to keep me (mostly) on the straight and narrow.

Those thoughts ain't natural @rebrascora , have you spoken to anyone about your feelings towards insulin & food?

Don't take my comment wrong way but thoughts like that can lead to eating disorders.

 

[rebrascora]

Those thoughts ain't natural @rebrascora , have you spoken to anyone about your feelings towards insulin & food?

Don't take my comment wrong way but thoughts like that can lead to eating disorders.

I appreciate your concern but your post really shows a complete lack of understanding of eating disorders and me as an individual.

I already have an eating disorder!! Otherwise I would not be consuming stupid quantities of chocolate like that!! I have mentioned it many times on this forum. I am very focused and committed to managing my diabetes well because otherwise I will be an even bigger burden to the NHS. I have a very logical mind. I reassess things regularly to make sure I am not getting things out of proportion. I am very honest both with myself and others.
Guzzling chocolate in that quantity is not healthy. It was a real effort to rein it in last night once I started, especially as there was still plenty left and I could easily fall back to consuming that much every day, which ultimately would probably kill me, so in many respects, getting my diabetes diagnosis has helped me to control it better than anything else could have done. Guilt and shame have been a great motivator for me. It doesn't drag me down, Those feeling help me to do better going forwards. I use whatever thoughts and strategies I can to keep it under wraps including that guilt that the NHS then has to fund the extra insulin I need when I have a binge. I am not in danger of not taking the insulin because I value my good diabetes management too much. The two are interlinked to keep me safe both from complications and from binging.... mostly 🙄

Moderation is not an option, just like one drink for an alcoholic is dangerous. It is all consuming once it gets ahold of you. These things are not an easy fix and there is no magic pill and I have tried various counselling techniques over the years for my mental health issues, so please don't think you are alerting me to something that I am unaware of or know nothing about. There are people far, far worse than me who need the very limited resources the NHS has to offer. So please don't knock the strategies that I use to help me manage it, because those have been the mainstay of me being so much better the last 4.5 years, better than I have been for the previous 20, which is why I stick to a low carb way of eating because it gives me better control of my eating disorder. You don't really recover from addiction, you manage it And this way of approaching the situation, helps me to manage it well most of the time. No one is perfect though 🙄 Back on the wagon now! 😉