Changes afoot needed

[Carolg]

Now all post festivities, have either eaten or donated all biscuit, cake sweets to birds, others or bin.
In all honesty BG creeping up at times, and feeling hungry pangs although eating.weight still off, with yo-yo pound. really fed up cause due diabetes review in February and dreading blood results. Bought an exerciser and used it 3 times in over a month. Cheapy Fitbit in my pocket waiting to be recharged. Chocolates and buns at work-out on full view. Scared witless in case at review they prescribe injectables. Furious with myself for out of control with buying treats in case of visitors, and eating them.more cross as I am contemplating delaying my review. Grrrr
Am grumpy at times so maybe as well it’s high blood sugars or I am just a grumpy sod.

So- here goes 1st day of change
Plan-
Look at diet
Get off my butt and move
Start up my ufo crafty things so don’t focus on what can I eat next
Read info about diabetes again and be realistic about what I can/will change
Give myself a wee break to be kind to myself.
Stop wingeing and be grateful for the health I have
Try to relax

Any other suggestions. Maybe have a “sweary “ tin for every time my fingers go in the chocolate tin,
I’m sure some of this is post Xmas, dark January blues, and thought to share as others might be feeling something like this as well
Thanks

 

[New-journey]

Now all post festivities, have either eaten or donated all biscuit, cake sweets to birds, others or bin.
In all honesty BG creeping up at times, and feeling hungry pangs although eating.weight still off, with yo-yo pound. really fed up cause due diabetes review in February and dreading blood results. Bought an exerciser and used it 3 times in over a month. Cheapy Fitbit in my pocket waiting to be recharged. Chocolates and buns at work-out on full view. Scared witless in case at review they prescribe injectables. Furious with myself for out of control with buying treats in case of visitors, and eating them.more cross as I am contemplating delaying my review. Grrrr
Am grumpy at times so maybe as well it’s high blood sugars or I am just a grumpy sod.

So- here goes 1st day of change
Plan-
Look at diet
Get off my butt and move
Start up my ufo crafty things so don’t focus on what can I eat next
Read info about diabetes again and be realistic about what I can/will change
Give myself a wee break to be kind to myself.
Stop wingeing and be grateful for the health I have
Try to relax

Any other suggestions. Maybe have a “sweary “ tin for every time my fingers go in the chocolate tin,
I’m sure some of this is post Xmas, dark January blues, and thought to share as others might be feeling something like this as well
Thanks

Good luck Carol and hope you feel better soon. Being kind to yourself sounds very important and essential part of making any changes. I had a dreadful day yesterday, cried in public places when small things went wrong, I do think post Xmas dark Januray Blues is real!

 

[eggyg]

You can do it Carol. And IF you do need insulin please don’t take it as failure, diabetes is a progressive condition as you know and sometimes you have to do what you have to do. Best wishes anyways. Elaine. X

 

[Amigo]

Now all post festivities, have either eaten or donated all biscuit, cake sweets to birds, others or bin.
In all honesty BG creeping up at times, and feeling hungry pangs although eating.weight still off, with yo-yo pound. really fed up cause due diabetes review in February and dreading blood results. Bought an exerciser and used it 3 times in over a month. Cheapy Fitbit in my pocket waiting to be recharged. Chocolates and buns at work-out on full view. Scared witless in case at review they prescribe injectables. Furious with myself for out of control with buying treats in case of visitors, and eating them.more cross as I am contemplating delaying my review. Grrrr
Am grumpy at times so maybe as well it’s high blood sugars or I am just a grumpy sod.

So- here goes 1st day of change
Plan-
Look at diet
Get off my butt and move
Start up my ufo crafty things so don’t focus on what can I eat next
Read info about diabetes again and be realistic about what I can/will change
Give myself a wee break to be kind to myself.
Stop wingeing and be grateful for the health I have
Try to relax

Any other suggestions. Maybe have a “sweary “ tin for every time my fingers go in the chocolate tin,
I’m sure some of this is post Xmas, dark January blues, and thought to share as others might be feeling something like this as well
Thanks

Yes absolutely understand Carol and high glucose levels make me very grumpy too. I was an idiot yesterday and felt angry and lethargic yesterday afternoon.

Don’t see any review result as a failure, just view it as renewed motivation. No judgements from here...this ain’t always easy!

 

[Carolg]

You can do it Carol. And IF you do need insulin please don’t take it as failure, diabetes is a progressive condition as you know and sometimes you have to do what you have to do. Best wishes anyways. Elaine. X

At one level I understand and accept that, but on another Elaine, I know I should have been more diligent with diet and exercise.
Posting here has been a bit self indulgent, but hopefully given me a bit of a mind clear out.and let others vent as well Thanks Elaine

 

[Carolg]

Good luck Carol and hope you feel better soon. Being kind to yourself sounds very important and essential part of making any changes. I had a dreadful day yesterday, cried in public places when small things went wrong, I do think post Xmas dark Januray Blues is real!

Hope you are better today new journey.

Yes absolutely understand Carol and high glucose levels make me very grumpy too. I was an idiot yesterday and felt angry and lethargic yesterday afternoon.

Don’t see any review result as a failure, just view it as renewed motivation. No judgements from here...this ain’t always easy!

Yes, grumpy was a word for me for a bit. Beat myself up when I feel I let myself down. Hope you are better today amigo

 

[Carolg]

2 hours later. Have recommenced a food diary, good choice for breakfast and extra fluids. Small steps even if it’s a small teaspoon of marmalade rather than a big dod

 

[HOBIE]

Go for it ! 😉

 

[Carolg]

Go for it ! 😉

Thanks hobie

 

[trophywench]

I do little things - for instance, that marmalade! My fave is 'Oxford' marmalade, great big chucks of orange peel, luvverly! - and the ONLY way to eat it is in 'waves' on lovely THICK toast dripping with butter ----- Pete's not keen at all, he'd far rather have 'Silver shred' or lime varieties - which I really don't enjoy TBH, However that's all we have these days if we have any - so I don't eat marmalade or indeed thick toast, any more!

 

[mikeyB]

Thank you Carol for describing events and feelings that every single one of us has gone through on this journey. And, like every one of us, you will sort this out through dint of will. Don’t be disturbed if you need insulin, that’s nothing to be ashamed of. You will get through this, as you have told us. January is a pig of a month anyway - I think diabetic reviews should be banned in the first two months of the year. When I was a GP I used to forgive most things in those months.

You know what you need to do. Best of luck doing it, and fear not, everybody here will be behind you, and nobody will ever criticise you.

Happy New Year🙂

 

[Carolg]

I do little things - for instance, that marmalade! My fave is 'Oxford' marmalade, great big chucks of orange peel, luvverly! - and the ONLY way to eat it is in 'waves' on lovely THICK toast dripping with butter ----- Pete's not keen at all, he'd far rather have 'Silver shred' or lime varieties - which I really don't enjoy TBH, However that's all we have these days if we have any - so I don't eat marmalade or indeed thick toast, any more!

Love the oxford stuff, and don’t like lime stuff. I have a loaf of oat and barley bread in freezer And refusing to defrost it while I get myself in order. Oh you have made me slabber Jenny. Thanks Jenny

 

[Carolg]

Thank you Carol for describing events and feelings that every single one of us has gone through on this journey. And, like every one of us, you will sort this out through dint of will. Don’t be disturbed if you need insulin, that’s nothing to be ashamed of. You will get through this, as you have told us. January is a pig of a month anyway - I think diabetic reviews should be banned in the first two months of the year. When I was a GP I used to forgive most things in those months.

You know what you need to do. Best of luck doing it, and fear not, everybody here will be behind you, and nobody will ever criticise you.

Happy New Year🙂

Thanks Mike.if my description of how I am feeling helps one other person, I am happy. I’m not ashamed about the prospect of maybe heading towards insulin, it’s my lack of control I don’t like.its easy to think “Och one wee bit of shortbread/mince pie, roastie etc shouldn’t put up BG that much...ha ha”. I am not sure what is more honest, is to go for review- bloods at beg of February and take it from there, or wait a few weeks and have bloods then, or which is the realistic and honest figure, but certainly only honest over the period of excesses. I know it’s an average over 3 months.

I agree, reviews should be banned till March and I will have a serious discussion about compliance and my miseries.
sunshine for the January dark days

 

[Carolg]

Wee update. After the pure kick up my own bum, yesterday I really thought of low carb, regular testing but no exercise. BG stayed in 9’s (not going up after 2 hours) till before tea time when pre meal down to 7.1 and 2 hrs later 9.5.
6.8 before bed and 8.1 this morning.

I’m going to walk to Lidl for wee boxes of nuts and looking for low carb stuff, but trying to make sure meals are filling to avoid snacking (not getting excited about walk- it’s only 10 min there and 10 mins back but might go the long way round)
Must admit, my head was in food yesterday, but not in a “what can I have next, more a you don’t need anything “way
Thanks all for your support and looking onward instead of backwards

 

[Barbara W]

I enjoyed reading your post it did make me chuckle but at the same time on a serious note it made me realise how I think most of us have gone through and still going through what you are saying. Don't kick your bum to hard make little changes to start with you will notice the difference. Definately go the long walk to Lidl walking is good keep it up 🙂

 

[Carolg]

I enjoyed reading your post it did make me chuckle but at the same time on a serious note it made me realise how I think most of us have gone through and still going through what you are saying. Don't kick your bum to hard make little changes to start with you will notice the difference. Definately go the long walk to Lidl walking is good keep it up 🙂

Thanks Barbara. I sometimes write posts and don’t post. It’s often enough just to get it all down and out of my head. Glad it made you chuckle. Wish I had the technical expertise to post a picture of myself and the contortions of self butt kicking to really make you chuckle.
At moment I am cosied in with a coffee, then breakfast, then waiting for frost to lift. Will go long way round if I put my thermals on

 

[Carolg]

Did go for a walk to shops and long way round on way back(30 mins all in). A bit of cardiovascular and nose almost dripping /freezing with cold wind.
Did well with food until I ate chilli without rice and last of ice cream. BG 9.6 before bed so not as bad as I expected.

 

[Carolg]

An update 1 week on. Not too bad a week, had a few “treats” but have knuckled down to being more focused at least till last night when out with friends for tea.
Still not exercising but not beating myself up.
BG coming down at times

Plan for this week.

Cook meals for 2 days x2
Eat more vegetables (they are in house but not getting in the pan) by time I get home from work I am a bit tired to cook so see above
Carry on with pack lunches
Keep smiling
Keep up food diary

Grateful for any other suggestions

 

[Jeandp]

Hi Carolg, I know exactly where you are coming from. I am very similar and have been very naughty over Christmas, so much so that I found I just didn't have time to test my BS, never mind exercise hahaha.

A couple of ideas. Why not exercise indoors? I do running on the spot. At a regular pace counting up to 70, then as fast as I can up to 200. And repeat (if you can) And chilli, without rice?! is that even allowed? No, why not make it with cauli rice? It might sound weird but trust me it is really nice.

If all else fails
Keep smiling 🙂🙂

 

[zuludog]

Now then, CAROLG, it's funny you should mention that; it's just the sort of thing I'm trying to do!