At breaking point

[AJLang]

im so sorry that I have not replied to posts that I normally would but I'm at nearly breaking point. My closest family member (apart from Mark) has made me feel like I'm a truly horrible woman, and of course the ongoing eye problem. I've been putting positive posts on Facebook but inside I feel hollow and just want to lay on the floor and cry. Mark and wonderful friends are being truly supportive. Apologies for not being here on the forum as much as you all have been for me.

 

[Ralph-YK]

No need to say sorry. You are not required to post. In fact, you've done well over your quota.
I'm sorry things are so bad for you, and your family member has done that.

 

[grovesy]

Sorry to hear this, sending you ((hugs)).

 

[everydayupsanddowns]

Don’t worry about us lot at all Amanda. You have more than enough in your plate. Just look after you.

Thanks for taking the time to post, but we all understand that you have to be very focussed with your time at the moment.

Take care and ((((Hugs))))

 

[CathyB]

Oh no! How awful for you I believe that when someone behaves in a way that puts you down like that, then it says far more about them than it does about you. I’m sorry they are so nasty and insecure that they have to hurt you to make themselves feel big.....it’s not big and it’s not clever, it’s called bullying!!
Please feel safe enough here to allow us to support you if we can. Keep that chin up and remember the wise words of the former First Lady Eleanor Roosevelt, “no one can humiliate you without your permission”.

 

[Lucy Honeychurch]

Take no notice of nasty comments. Channel Michelle Obama "when they go low, we go higher"
Sending you best wishes and (((hugs))) xxx

 

[Heath o]

Hope your feeling better soon Aj take as much time as you need,x

 

[Ljc]

I am sorry to hear you have been made to feel like this by a close family member. You have more than enough worries on your plate without being made to feel so bad. We know you are a lovely person who has helped support many on here including me ! .
I wish this hug could be a real one but as it has to be a cyber hug I’m giving you my favourite one

Take care and look after yourself ok
XXX

 

[Vince_UK]

No need to every say sorry to your friends @AJLang and we are your friends.
{{{{{{{HUGS}}}}}}

 

[KookyCat]

Hey AJ 🙂 sorry to hear you’re having a difficult time, hope it gets better soon x

 

[mikeyB]

We know you’re not a truly horrible woman. You know it too, Amanda. So does Mark. Sounds like your close family member is alone in that opinion. Just keep that in mind.

And don’t bother about us, concentrate on getting better.🙂

 

[Grannylorraine]

Sorry to hear that a family member is being like this towards you, is that person hurting and lashing out at you to make themselves feel better. It is good that you have Mark and your friends support at this difficult time.

 

[Pine Marten]

Seconding what everyone has said, AJ, please look after yourself and don't worry about us - we are here for you whenever you need xxxx

 

[Stitch147]

Just sending you some hugs AJ. XX

 

[AJLang]

Thank you everyone x

 

[AJLang]

Sorry to hear that a family member is being like this towards you, is that person hurting and lashing out at you to make themselves feel better. It is good that you have Mark and your friends support at this difficult time.

Thank you Grannylorraine. You could well be right but all I've done to try to help him. I lost my Mum in the summer and now my Dad is lashing out at me and I don't know what to do, I haven't got the strength for it anymore.

 

[AJLang]

Just to top everything I go a phone call this morning from the hospital audiology department this morning to say my appointment for next Wednesday isn't soon enough so they've moved appointments around so they can see me tomorrow. You couldn't make it up.

 

[Lisa66]

Thank you Grannylorraine. You could well be right but all I've done to try to help him. I lost my Mum in the summer and now my Dad is lashing out at me and I don't know what to do, I haven't got the strength for it anymore.

So sorry you're having such a tough time Amanda. What's the saying about people hurting those they love the most? Sounds like he's taking his sadness and frustrations out on you, forgetting you have your own sadness and frustrations to deal with losing your mum...shame he can't see that. He should be supporting you too. Maybe have a little break from him if you can, give him time to think and let your brother (?) look out for him for a bit.

Surround yourself with your lovely supportive friends. Hope things pick up for you soon. Take care x

 

[Amigo]

Thank you Grannylorraine. You could well be right but all I've done to try to help him. I lost my Mum in the summer and now my Dad is lashing out at me and I don't know what to do, I haven't got the strength for it anymore.

I’m loathe to give advice on this AJ but at the moment I’m feeling raw with grief and it creates anger and rage. Sometimes the only people we can express that to are those we love and trust the most. Doesn’t help you I know because you are hurting too but your dad has been left alone and is more impacted as a result. I read this in an article and it made sense to me;

‘For many, being angry is more acceptable than being sad. Sad comes from hurt and we don’t want to hurt anymore.

We fear exposing our vulnerability, so we lash out at those around us. It could be towards someone close or a total stranger. It’s scary if you’ve been the nice guy or girl all your life but now, you’re the emotional bitch.

Anger is your body’s natural reaction to threat. The threat can be real or perceived. Someone died, there’s nothing more threatening.’

This time will hopefully pass but I can appreciate it’s hurtful. Try to ride this storm with him as despite his behaviour, your dad probably needs you. A bit of space is probably a good idea right now.

 

[SB2015]

No worries about us AJ. Take care and know you mean a lot to so many people.