Am I being paranoid?

[Zosema]

Hi everyone, I've been having a really bad week and I could really do with some advice from other people who may have been in my situation.

I feel like I've rather gone to pieces since receiving my diabetes diagnosis about 3 weeks ago.

I am a longterm depression sufferer and had been on the same antidepressants for about 10 years so, about 3 months ago, I asked my doctor if I could change to something else as I felt the medication was affecting my cognitive abilities. He changed my medication and I tailed off the old tablets whilst introducing the new ones, as per his instructions.

As expected, I have experienced some withdrawal symptoms, it's not been plain sailing.

I spoke to my boss about this as soon as I knew I was changing my medication (I didn't tell him what medication and what it's for) and told him there was a chance the change over might make me rather "woolly" in the head for a while - which it has!

Anyway, whilst I was going through this process I was diagnosed with Type 2 diabetes. This has exacerbated my depression a lot.

My work has suffered, I know I've been very vague and "not with it", so I spoke to my boss again yesterday to update him on my situation. He said it had been noticed that I've been very vague and not on the ball and that my work has suffered. He said that he's sympathetic but has to think of the business at the same time (it's his company and there are only 9 staff, including me).

I'm now feeling worried that this could be used against me or might go against me in the future.

Has anyone else experienced this and, if so, what did you do about it?

Thanks for any advice you can give.

Best wishes
Zosema

 

[novorapidboi26]

Just a message of sympathy as I have no direct experience with these issues.......

I would probably say that you should be honest with your employer and accept whatever help they may offer you.....

Good luck..............🙂

 

[Northerner]

As it is a small business I suspect he's under pressure himself and may not have been able to hide his concerns, but I don't think you should add to your worries over this. He has said he is sympathetic, and you are clearly a person who is honest with him - I think he knows that you will make every effort to do your job well as your strenght returns.

A diagnosis on top of your other problems must be very hard to come to terms with, like fate has kicked you whilst you are down. The good thing to remember about a diagnosis of diabetes is that there is hope, and every chance that the dietary and lifestyle changes, plus any treatment you may need, will result in a much happier and healthier you. So although it may seem counter-intuitive try not to think of your diagnosis as purely a negative and try and look forward to making the changes that will help you to manage it well 🙂

Any time things are getting you down or something is worrying or confusing you, please let us know and we may be able to help. 🙂

 

[Blythespirit]

My thoughts are similar to Northeners. I've been on both sides of the fence, both as employer and employee so I can see where your boss is coming from here. Times are difficult, especially for the small buisness and he will be concerned and voicing his concerns to you. You have been up front with him and he's being the same with you. Now, you have been a reliable employee but are going through a difficult time at the moment. This is most likely to be temporary as you will feel better once your meds are sorted and you have control over your diabetes. Your boss should be aware of that and know that normal service should be resumed soon. Keep him informed and let him know that. I hope things improve for you soon. We'll help you in any way we can too, so try not to worry too much as that will only slow your recovery. Take care and good luck. XXXXX