SB2015
Well-Known Member
- Relationship to Diabetes
- Type 1
Sorry to read that you have had such a wobble over the festive period Adam.I’ve had Type 1 for 66 years now, and the situation is different. Now I’m 82 and age is affecting me much more. My wife now does all the digging on the allotments . I get too dizzy and am not as strong.
I had a stroke a year ago which meant a year of frequent bouts of total fatigue. My speech is getting much better and my handwriting is not good but very readable. I joined the choir again (next concert, Bach’s St Johns Passion!), only occasional Irish Set Dancing, I’m making furniture to commission again. I haven’t had Covid.
I had a bit of a breakdown over Christmas, when my BG wouldn’t come down for about four hours in spite of over-dosing on insulin. We were watching “Some Like It Hot” for the tenth time, when the eight units of soluble insulin finally hit and my blood sugar went to about 2.5 Just as we were about to eat a very light dinner of salad and leftover veg. I felt paralysed and ate as fast as I could but I couldn’t stop and refuse the food on the table and demand glucose and sweet things. Diabetes sometimes stops you doing what you know you ought to do, though nothing like this for the last thirty years.
I’ve been taking care of my diabetes for 66 years and I suddenly couldn’t cope. Very slowly my BG went back to 5.0 but I was still filled with appalling despair at not being able to cope, and gradually less likely to be able to cope. As I said, it is what happens when you get old.
I am not due to get a Medtronic G780 replacement for my G640 for another year. That would have automatically evened out my insulin/BG response. It was frightenin, mainly because all diabetics have to keep this bloody blue balloon off the floor all the time, all of our lives And for a while I lost the resilience. It was the first total bout of despair in my life, which means I am unbelievably lucky not to feel it more often.
The experience will prepare me better and next time I will be more able and ready to cope. My wife and I love each other to bits, we grow lots of veg, fruit and flowers on our allotments, we sing every week and we dance as often as we can. Diabetes has got nothing to defeat that combination.
If you’ve got diabetes, just build as many defences against despair as you can. Love is sometimes difficult to find, but keep growing things, join a choir and go dancing. Things will be better
Adam
Type 1 since 1956 on GMedtronic 640 with CGM (thank God for NHS) Hba1C about 7.8. Height 6’ 12stone (183cms 78 kg). Quite irregular carb/insulin response, different every day. No hypoglycaemia awareness. Very varying high and low blood pressures (70/43 to 165/85.
Sorry for such a long piece
I think a lot of us can relate to those pesky stubborn hypos, and your behaviour when so low sounds like a perfectly normal response when you have ‘hypo brain’.
You clearly do live with your diabetes and keep the balloon in the air most of the time (nice analogy), so well done. You clearly have such a positive approach to things most of the time and we are all allowed a melt down Now and then. You have done so well to get this far without one before. It is great to read of your getting back to choir, and looking forward to the St John’s Passion.
You are an inspiration. Thank you for sharing your experience.