Hi Joe
Just catching up with posts...
I’m sorry you’re feeling so anxious, but as others say it’s perfectly understandable. It’s also understandable that you’re looking for information and knowledge to help yourself...which is great. Knowledge is power etc. However tempting as it is to google things, it’s rarely a good idea. Get your information from reliable sources, otherwise you will unnecessarily scare the whatsit out of yourself...and there’s always a “friendly and helpful” person to tell you about poor great auntie or uncle so and so....ignore them! Take a look at all the positive posts in the forum of members holidaying around the world, travelling with jobs, take a peep at the sport section too.
So I was diagnosed over 40 years ago (still a newbie compared to many on this forum). Testing was etc was quite basic compared to today, but probably quite hi-tech to those diagnosed 10 years before me. No hba1c, no Libre sensors to see what’s going on and fixed doses of insulin, so less freedom to eat when and how much you fancied...so I imagine my blood sugars weren’t as steady or as good as the last few years...who knows. Touch wood and whistle I’m still apparently very fit and healthy.
I’ve always eaten healthy and kept fit...and got on with enjoying the normal life and things that all my non diabetic friends do...probably actually healthier than many of them as I know I have to look after myself.
Is it easy? Not always? Can it be a pain in the posterior? Yes at times, but then who in life doesn’t have occasional inconveniences and hiccups?
Don’t expect to get your doses sorted and then to pootle along perfectly on that dose for ever. All sort of things affect control and we are all tweaking our doses and carbs from time to time or week to week, it becomes part of life, but mostly toddling along pretty nicely. I look at it that we are “fortunate” to get all the health checks we do and generally if we have any other health concerns we get moved up the list. These are all for conditions that can also affect non diabetics, so we get an earlier warning than them and time to address anything and hopefully head it off.
As
@trophywench often says “we’ll controlled diabetes is the cause of .... absolutely nothing”.
So I fully appreciate your concerns and getting used to your new way of life. It will become second nature before you know it. Try and get on with enjoying life...take up hobbies or get back to things that take your mind of the diabetes for a bit, get out and about with friends....and maybe you can have a think and come up with a way to stop my long winded rambling?
With a big reassuring hug and best wishes. X