Still coming to terms with type 2 Diabetes April 2016 diagnosed,

[osaro]

Can still remember the nurse saying those words to me that i had diabetes and i have never felt the same ever since,I feel like a completely different person and not in a good way.my symptoms were quite severe at the time constantly going to the toilet, feeling thirsty always but my biggest concern was my eyesight i knew i had to get myself to the hospital as soon as possible.I thought maybe its something that wouldn't be long term but when the nurse tested my blood sugar it was so high 44.1 or something and told me i had diabetes my heart sank and i wanted to wake up and realize that i was having a bad dream or something..so then came confusion, regret, blaming myself for not eating well for years even though at one point in my life i was exercising for a long period.I was put on insulin for a couple of weeks then was told i could come of that then put on Metformin and my blood sugar went down to about 4.5 to highest maybe 9.5 but during my diagnosis i had another problem i am an alcoholic, in debt, so at the time this was just another problem that was stacked up on top of the others but this one still feels different constantly knocking any confidence i have right down,, i feel isolated some times and alone and sometimes in serious denial about my condition, i always think back on the years before i was diagnosed with this disease and miss them so much. Had a panic attack last year due to a problem with my foot couldn't walk on it at all for days thought it had something to do with my type 2 but got to the hospital and was told it was a sprained muscle, that i was still healthy i wanted to weep at that moment and for a split second all the horror stories that have been rammed down my throat starting attacking me at once. no one i know has this condition depression has hit me so many times would like to share my stories with others and get back to fighting this disease...

 

[Steff]

Morning osaro.
So sorry to hear your story sounds like you have had it really tough to say the least the depression triggers the drinking and vice versa I guess as well as the diabetes. It's been nearly a year now have you kept to taking your meds, what is your care team like,do you have a councillor ? It's a big step coming on here and one you should feel proud of doing you are not alone and now you've joined this forum we can all help and give you support all the way. Do you have a supportive family

 

[osaro]

Morning osaro.
So sorry to hear your story sounds like you have had it really tough to say the least the depression triggers the drinking and vice versa I guess as well as the diabetes. It's been nearly a year now have you kept to taking your meds, what is your care team like,do you have a councillor ? It's a big step coming on here and one you should feel proud of doing you are not alone and now you've joined this forum we can all help and give you support all the way. Do you have a supportive family

Thanks for the reply and support i have had some dark moments but trying to face this thing i was on a lot of metformin going to call my gp to get some more, i ran out a couple of months ago and was worried that my blood sugar would shot upwards but got a test at my gp and my blood sugar was at 11.5 thought it would be a lot higher nurse was surprised by that and give me more meds, but later on i am getting my blood sugar tested again my care team is ok i guess. I don't have a councilor yet my family don't seem to understand how serious diabetes is type 2 anyway when i was first diagnosed they were concerned but the questions about my condition have completely stopped over the months to be honest and it gets really annoying when they offer me food i should not be eating, i have been offered chocolates and cakes and sometimes i look in disbelief told my dad about it and he really tried to make me feel better saying positive things and offering to come with me to appointments but that was a long time ago.

 

[grovesy]

Sounds like you have alot going on there. Take care.

 

[Bubbsie]

Can still remember the nurse saying those words to me that i had diabetes and i have never felt the same ever since,I feel like a completely different person and not in a good way.my symptoms were quite severe at the time constantly going to the toilet, feeling thirsty always but my biggest concern was my eyesight i knew i had to get myself to the hospital as soon as possible.I thought maybe its something that wouldn't be long term but when the nurse tested my blood sugar it was so high 44.1 or something and told me i had diabetes my heart sank and i wanted to wake up and realize that i was having a bad dream or something..so then came confusion, regret, blaming myself for not eating well for years even though at one point in my life i was exercising for a long period.I was put on insulin for a couple of weeks then was told i could come of that then put on Metformin and my blood sugar went down to about 4.5 to highest maybe 9.5 but during my diagnosis i had another problem i am an alcoholic, in debt, so at the time this was just another problem that was stacked up on top of the others but this one still feels different constantly knocking any confidence i have right down,, i feel isolated some times and alone and sometimes in serious denial about my condition, i always think back on the years before i was diagnosed with this disease and miss them so much. Had a panic attack last year due to a problem with my foot couldn't walk on it at all for days thought it had something to do with my type 2 but got to the hospital and was told it was a sprained muscle, that i was still healthy i wanted to weep at that moment and for a split second all the horror stories that have been rammed down my throat starting attacking me at once. no one i know has this condition depression has hit me so many times would like to share my stories with others and get back to fighting this disease...

Just saw your post osaro...lots of issues to comment on...about to dash for another blood test...so no time now...will be back shortly...just wanted to reassure you it does and can get better.

 

[Bubbsie]

Can still remember the nurse saying those words to me that i had diabetes and i have never felt the same ever since,I feel like a completely different person and not in a good way.my symptoms were quite severe at the time constantly going to the toilet, feeling thirsty always but my biggest concern was my eyesight i knew i had to get myself to the hospital as soon as possible.I thought maybe its something that wouldn't be long term but when the nurse tested my blood sugar it was so high 44.1 or something and told me i had diabetes my heart sank and i wanted to wake up and realize that i was having a bad dream or something..so then came confusion, regret, blaming myself for not eating well for years even though at one point in my life i was exercising for a long period.I was put on insulin for a couple of weeks then was told i could come of that then put on Metformin and my blood sugar went down to about 4.5 to highest maybe 9.5 but during my diagnosis i had another problem i am an alcoholic, in debt, so at the time this was just another problem that was stacked up on top of the others but this one still feels different constantly knocking any confidence i have right down,, i feel isolated some times and alone and sometimes in serious denial about my condition, i always think back on the years before i was diagnosed with this disease and miss them so much. Had a panic attack last year due to a problem with my foot couldn't walk on it at all for days thought it had something to do with my type 2 but got to the hospital and was told it was a sprained muscle, that i was still healthy i wanted to weep at that moment and for a split second all the horror stories that have been rammed down my throat starting attacking me at once. no one i know has this condition depression has hit me so many times would like to share my stories with others and get back to fighting this disease...

Hi osaro...as far as I know there is no one cause/explanation for type 2 diabetes...there is a popular myth that it only happens to those who are grossly overweight...lazy...sloth like creatures...in addition to the culture of blame that exists among the popular press and many members of the general public...I often feel it is labelled as the 'easier.. less serious diabetes' (my opinion)...nothing could be further from the truth...firstly you are likely to have a genetic pre-disposition to diabetes...otherwise all the vastly overweight inactive people I know and have met would all be type 2 (they are not)...secondly you have had a rather brutal introduction to your condition...with the additional problems of depression...alcohol...debt...lack of familial support...good to get that off your chest...hard to admit those we expect the most support from let us down when we most need it...although I doubt that is the case...you need to see it from their point of view...they are not living it daily as you are...its not something they can visualise (like a broken leg in a plaster cast)...now having said that...time to consider how you want/are going to manage your diabetes...concentrate your energies on that...one thing I would say to manage diabetes you need to understand what it is exactly you are battling...I can recommend a book I read shortly after diagnosis...Type 2 Diabetes The First Year by Gretchen Becker...herself a type 2 diabetic who takes you through her first year as a diabetic month by month...it answers many of the questions you pose above...gives you an understanding of why/how her diagnosis came about and how she deals with it...applicable to many of us...a couple of questions...are you regularly testing your own blood...still taking your medication...how are you adjusting your diet/lifestyle...said a lot more than initially intended to for a first response...no doubt you will have more questions...and other members will in due course offer advice & assistance...keep us updated...ask whatever you need to...first difficult step taken to refocus on dealing with your condition...posting here...great start.

 

[Lindarose]

Welcome osaro. Sorry you're going through such a bad time but hopefully with support from everyone on here you can improve things. 🙂

 

[osaro]

Hi osaro...as far as I know there is no one cause/explanation for type 2 diabetes...there is a popular myth that it only happens to those who are grossly overweight...lazy...sloth like creatures...in addition to the culture of blame that exists among the popular press and many members of the general public...I often feel it is labelled as the 'easier.. less serious diabetes' (my opinion)...nothing could be further from the truth...firstly you are likely to have a genetic pre-disposition to diabetes...otherwise all the vastly overweight inactive people I know and have met would all be type 2 (they are not)...secondly you have had a rather brutal introduction to your condition...with the additional problems of depression...alcohol...debt...lack of familial support...good to get that off your chest...hard to admit those we expect the most support from let us down when we most need it...although I doubt that is the case...you need to see it from their point of view...they are not living it daily as you are...its not something they can visualise (like a broken leg in a plaster cast)...now having said that...time to consider how you want/are going to manage your diabetes...concentrate your energies on that...one thing I would say to manage diabetes you need to understand what it is exactly you are battling...I can recommend a book I read shortly after diagnosis...Type 2 Diabetes The First Year by Gretchen Becker...herself a type 2 diabetic who takes you through her first year as a diabetic month by month...it answers many of the questions you pose above...gives you an understanding of why/how her diagnosis came about and how she deals with it...applicable to many of us...a couple of questions...are you regularly testing your own blood...still taking your medication...how are you adjusting your diet/lifestyle...said a lot more than initially intended to for a first response...no doubt you will have more questions...and other members will in due course offer advice & assistance...keep us updated...ask whatever you need to...first difficult step taken to refocus on dealing with your condition...posting here...great start.

Thanks for your message just read it and am taking a lot of things being said into consideration my introduction to it was tough you are right will keep you posted thanks again

 

[Steff]

Thanks for the reply and support i have had some dark moments but trying to face this thing i was on a lot of metformin going to call my gp to get some more, i ran out a couple of months ago and was worried that my blood sugar would shot upwards but got a test at my gp and my blood sugar was at 11.5 thought it would be a lot higher nurse was surprised by that and give me more meds, but later on i am getting my blood sugar tested again my care team is ok i guess. I don't have a councilor yet my family don't seem to understand how serious diabetes is type 2 anyway when i was first diagnosed they were concerned but the questions about my condition have completely stopped over the months to be honest and it gets really annoying when they offer me food i should not be eating, i have been offered chocolates and cakes and sometimes i look in disbelief told my dad about it and he really tried to make me feel better saying positive things and offering to come with me to appointments but that was a long time ago.

Yeah sometimes family can take a little while to get there heads around it to, i guess its ignorance in part as they dont know nothing about it, dont worry my dad still tryes to feed me badly and he only sees me 3 times a year and lives with a t1 so should know better but i just roll my eyes and steer him in right direction. hope the blood sugar test goes ok x