Hi Julie and welcome.
I am so sorry to hear that you are suffering diabetic complications but so pleased that you have reached out to the forum as getting support and advice and feeling less alone with this is key to helping you move forward and looking after yourself better. Diabetes is really mentally challenging because it affects such a big part of our lives and unfortunately because it can sometimes be symptomless or those symptoms are so slow to develop that you don't notice them, it can be all too easy to bury your head in the sand. I imagine it must be especially difficult to manage when you have a new born baby to look after and then of course the self neglect probably almost becomes habit and part of motherhood and putting your child first. If you broke a leg, there would be no question that you needed to get it sorted pronto, but diabetes can be all too easy just to put off dealing with.
The important thing is that you are now ready to take control of things and improve the situation and we will be here with you to support you with that and hopefully some of the issues you are having can be treated and/or perhaps reduced by better blood glucose management.
Are you getting any support from your GP practice or perhaps a specialist diabetes clinic? They should be helping you to adjust your doses. Unfortunately diabetic services are stretched due to Covid as it has increased their already struggling resources, so you may have to be politely pushy to get the help you need, but please set that ball in motion. Ring up tomorrow (or email if your surgery have that facility) to get an appointment.
Can you tell us a bit about your insulin regime. How many units you take and when you take them?
Because you are on a mixed insulin you will need to eat regular meals of roughly a similar size (carbohydrate content) to balance the insulin. This requires being quite disciplined which maybe fine if you have a good meal routine with having a child/children(teenager now I guess) to look after. It does also mean that you need to eat even if you are not hungry and any eating between meals will push your levels higher. This works fine for people who can maintain a good routine but there is an alternative basal/bolus insulin regime where you inject long acting insulin once or twice a day to cover the output from your liver and then quick acting insulin before each meal to cover the carbs in that meal for people who want or need more flexibility in their eating and insulin. This allows you to eat or not eat when you want or is convenient and fits in with your lifestyle but it involves a few more injections and a bit more thought but you gain that flexibility. I think it depends upon what aspect of your diabetes management you find most difficult. I cannot manage to follow a routine for more than a couple of days but other people are creatures of habit.
As regards having hypos, I hope you have been able to treat them easily and recover well. Have you been adjusting your insulin doses yourself or have you been taking the doses set by your nurse but perhaps the hot weather recently has been making them more effective and hence the hypos? This past week I have had probably near 20 hypos even though I have been progressively reducing my insulin doses..... looking forward to the cooler weather but then I will of course have to adjust them back up. I try to see my diabetes as a bit of a game/challenge where the opposition doesn't play by the rules a lot of the time, so I have to keep a cl;ose eye on the game and try new strategies if I am taking a drubbing (like last week)
🙄 I have had small victories within the week though and it is important to acknowledge those achievements and be proud of them as well as learn from the hypos and figure out how to prevent them. Seeing it as a long running "game" helps me to cope better. I don't see myself as a particularly competitive person but I like to challenge myself and do the best I can so my goal is to get as good at "the diabetes game" as I can, whilst still going out there and living my life.
Learning more by asking questions and reading other peoples' stories here on the forum has really helped me to manage my diabetes better and more importantly has given me confidence that I can not just manage this, but manage it well, but that it isn't at all easy and sometimes I will have good days and other times I will struggle and that is normal and OK. My aim is to have more good days than frustrating ones and I can do that my empowering myself with knowledge.
Very conscious I am wittering but hope some of what I have said resonates but if not, someone else will be along with a different approach which may be more up your street. The important thing to know is that you have support here. We understand the difficulty just in facing up to this. There is no judgement about what has gone before. It is what you do now which is important and we are here to support you with that.
Why don't you join our "Group 7-day waking average thread"? We don't bother with the "average" part anymore, we just post our waking reading each day and have a bit of chat and banter. It is like a virtual coffee morning where we exchange thoughts on how we are feeling about our readings, any plans for the day, diabetic and non diabetic stuff. It has a real community feel to it and just posting each day keeps you sort of a bit "accountable" but also helps us get to know each other better and that people care on a daily basis how we are doing. Celebrate our successes and offer support when we are struggling. It's a great thread.... I have linked below, if you fancy joining us. If you want to get a flavour of it, read the last few pages but don't be shy about just jumping in and posting your waking reading tomorrow. You will soon get to know us and vice versa.... Maybe see you there soon....