Hi all,
I am in a horrible mood tonight. I am sick of Alex having infections due to his sensor and tonight he has one from his canula.
I know everyone on here is a complete star coping with diabetes, but I just want to moan about being a 'carer'. Its the most soul-destroying job in the world. I dont like it.
I put my heart and soul into trying to keep levels within range - and then some stupid infection decides to come and play and mess it all up and I hate it.
When your watching your child happy in play knowing that his level is 12 or more - all you can think of is 'will this affect his eyesight or his kidneys' and you look into their beautiful little faces and you think 'do they know'.
I am not in any way saying that it is harder for a 'carer' - obviously it isnt. I just want everyone to understand just how hard and horrible it is to try to take charge of something that has a mind of its own and at any opportunity will catch you out like some sort of 'grim reaper' watching and waiting for you to take your eye off the ball and strike in the most hideous way possible.
I look after my childrens teeth and their feet and their eyesight and their education and I have some control of all of these - but diabates doesnt give anything back - nothing nice - nothing positive - just negativeness.
I hate diabetes and I hate that you all have it and if I could change things I would.Bev
I am in a horrible mood tonight. I am sick of Alex having infections due to his sensor and tonight he has one from his canula.
I know everyone on here is a complete star coping with diabetes, but I just want to moan about being a 'carer'. Its the most soul-destroying job in the world. I dont like it.
I put my heart and soul into trying to keep levels within range - and then some stupid infection decides to come and play and mess it all up and I hate it.
When your watching your child happy in play knowing that his level is 12 or more - all you can think of is 'will this affect his eyesight or his kidneys' and you look into their beautiful little faces and you think 'do they know'.
I am not in any way saying that it is harder for a 'carer' - obviously it isnt. I just want everyone to understand just how hard and horrible it is to try to take charge of something that has a mind of its own and at any opportunity will catch you out like some sort of 'grim reaper' watching and waiting for you to take your eye off the ball and strike in the most hideous way possible.
I look after my childrens teeth and their feet and their eyesight and their education and I have some control of all of these - but diabates doesnt give anything back - nothing nice - nothing positive - just negativeness.
I hate diabetes and I hate that you all have it and if I could change things I would.Bev