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@Petarnott
It is quite common to have a fairly strong emotional reaction to a diagnosis with a long-term condition.
I was diagnosed with type 1 in my early 20s, and it came as a shock the first time I heard the phrase ‘chronically ill’ (which only really means a long-term condition that needs to be managed, but wasn’t a term I’d imagined being used about me at that stage of life!).
Some people think about their diagnosis as a form of grieving - with the same overwhelming emotions coming in waves or a chaotic jumble, including denial, anger, bargaining, depression and eventually some sort of acceptance.
But I like
@Lucyr ’s view of things. You didn’t go from ‘well’ to ‘ill’ in that moment. Changes were already happening in your body, and your metabolism was already beginning to struggle - but now you have the benefit of knowing what you are dealing with, so that you can work to improve your health.
Diabetes is a serious condition, but it’s also one that can usually be managed well with a few changes and adaptations - it’s something that you can learn to live well with, and it shouldn’t stop you doing things you enjoy. Try not to be disheartened about your diagnosis, many people on the forum later reflect that their diagnosis became a catalyst which prompted them to make positive changes towards a healthier and more active life. Perhaps changes that they had been intending to make for years.
You might like Maggie Davey’s open letter to the newly diagnosed, which is an account of the way one woman began to come to terms with her own diagnosis.
This disappeared from the original site, but @Alan S has managed to track it down. Rather than risk losing that link I'm posting the text here. I've had to split it over a few posts, as there is a size limit for each post and it wouldn't all fit in one! :) An open letter to the newly-diagnosed...
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