Trying to get back on the right track...

[Cat1964]

It's not been a very good few weeks for me with everything. First of all we had a crisis in the family about 4 weeks ago. Then I thought it had all sorted itself out and felt a bit better about things. I hadn't realised just how much it had affected me, but over the past four weeks I have not been a good girl. I've been eating EVERYTHING that I shouldn't be. White bread, breakfast cereals, potatoes, chips, sweets, chocolate, biscuits, not in vast quantities but since being diagnosed in January I had cut out all rubbish and was doing not too bad on the weight loss side too. I remember thinking a few weeks ago I can't do family crisises (?) and diabetes. I was feeling so down I thought stuff it and I did. I packed in diabetes and went back to my life before diabetes. Problem is the diabetes hasn't packed me in!! I haven't tested my BG in ages, in fact I noticed today the test strips I have went out of date last week. So I've been peeing for Scotland this week but not even drinking enough either even though I had a thirst. I. Just as I was starting to feel a bit better tiredness wise I am back to square one. I am back to feeling worn out and that kind of wears you down too. And to cap it all off the family crisis raised its ugly head again this week and is worse than I thought. Kick a girl when she's down why don't ya?? I've had nosebleeds every day for 2 weeks, maybe my blood pressure??? And am currently nursing a terrible pain in my left hand which radiates into my wrist and is quite debilitating, even doing something daft like spraying deodorant hurts like hell. I have a GP appointment for the hand and nosebleeds this Monday. I've came to the conclusion I really need to get back on track and get back to sensible eating and living and try and learn to live with this diabetes thing!! I have an appointment with my diabetic nurse on 25th April for the results of my HbA1c test and cholesterol test, and I bet you I've put some of those 9lbs that I lost, straight back on. I haven't been around the forum much of late....lying low, but think I maybe need your help in future to stop me packing in diabetes again cos I know it refuses to pack me in!!!

 

[LeeLee]

Awww! Bless you Cat, at least you've found the strength to move on. You KNOW what to do, and how to get your control back. It requires a huge effort, and sometimes it's all just a bit too much. Feel free to rant about the unfairness of it all - every one of us feels that way at times.

 

[Cat1964]

It does feel unfair LeeLee. In all honesty life and diabetes don't go too well together. Life is difficult enough just now without having to think about diabetes too! I have taken this week coming off work just because I thought I can't deal with it all right now. So am hoping I get a wee bit of chilling time to myself next week.

 

[Twitchy]

It does feel unfair LeeLee. In all honesty life and diabetes don't go too well together. Life is difficult enough just now without having to think about diabetes too! I have taken this week coming off work just because I thought I can't deal with it all right now. So am hoping I get a wee bit of chilling time to myself next week.

I know what you mean Cat - I have two small kids who I love dearly but my goodness they are driving me mad at the mo!! They are dynamos of mess, chaos & destruction & it seems these days i can't take my eye off them for a minute - it's hard not to end up feeling tired & resentful when sugar levels go haywire due to stress, tiredness or a missed bolus. Really struggling with this at the mo. Hoe you have a lovely week off, a break sounds like a great idea!!

 

[Cat1964]

I know what you mean Cat - I have two small kids who I love dearly but my goodness they are driving me mad at the mo!! They are dynamos of mess, chaos & destruction & it seems these days i can't take my eye off them for a minute - it's hard not to end up feeling tired & resentful when sugar levels go haywire due to stress, tiredness or a missed bolus. Really struggling with this at the mo. Hoe you have a lovely week off, a break sounds like a great idea!!

Thanks Twitchy, I know what you mean. I found myself on Tuesday losing my temper with my 15 year old daughter who is an absolute angel. I had been feeling off all day and one stupid wee thing she did caused such a row. I ended up after it was all over thinking where did all that come from? I was off work over easter on holiday from Good Friday and didnt go back till Wednesday but as soon as I was in work I thought, I don't want to be here.....and I like my job too. So I had a look in the leave book and managed to be able to get a week off. Just need some chilling time with not having to worry about work and all its stresses. To be able to get some much needed lie ins to get a bit more sleep. To be able to get back on track and stop eating c**p too. It is unfair to have diabetes...I didn't ask for it!!! I know I sound like I am moaning and realise I am moaning and its not fair to moan. There are people on these forums who are having a harder time than I am coping with their diabetes so I should really pull myself together and get on with i!! 🙂

 

[Lauras87]

It does feel unfair LeeLee. In all honesty life and diabetes don't go too well together. Life is difficult enough just now without having to think about diabetes too!

I'm with you on that cat. Life sucks, just when you've turned a corner *bam* you get it from another angle.

I hope your other health issues go & you can get back on the diabetes easily without too much stress.

And also *hug*

 

[Cat1964]

I'm with you on that cat. Life sucks, just when you've turned a corner *bam* you get it from another angle.

I hope your other health issues go & you can get back on the diabetes easily without too much stress.

And also *hug*

Thanks Laura. It's just been a terrible few weeks or me with one thing and another. I have been wondering is that why I am having the nosebleeds too....stress. My hand, I have a feeling my doctor will SA it's either RSI or Carpal Tunnel Syndrome, but whatever it is its really painful. I really do have to get back on track with the D thing because it ain't gonna get better without any input from me. I know it's not going to go away. I need to learn to live with D in my life without giving up. I'm just going to potter about the house and do lots of spring cleaning next week.

Laura, hope your issues settle down as well and thanks for the hug. Here's one for ou too. (((((Laura))))) xxx

 

[Lauras87]

Thanks Laura. It's just been a terrible few weeks or me with one thing and another. I have been wondering is that why I am having the nosebleeds too....stress. My hand, I have a feeling my doctor will SA it's either RSI or Carpal Tunnel Syndrome, but whatever it is its really painful. I really do have to get back on track with the D thing because it ain't gonna get better without any input from me. I know it's not going to go away. I need to learn to live with D in my life without giving up. I'm just going to potter about the house and do lots of spring cleaning next week.

Laura, hope your issues settle down as well and thanks for the hug. Here's one for ou too. (((((Laura))))) xxx

I have carpal tunnel in both hands - I had surgery on my left hand last year to correct it, right hand will be done when it flares up.

If it is the steroid injects do a brilliant job of helping, so all isn't lost.

Thank you for the hug cat, sadly it made me teary!

 

[Cat1964]

I have carpal tunnel in both hands - I had surgery on my left hand last year to correct it, right hand will be done when it flares up.

If it is the steroid injects do a brilliant job of helping, so all isn't lost.

Thank you for the hug cat, sadly it made me teary!

Aaaaaw Laura, I didn't mean to make you cry. Sorry. I do like a hug myself and if its my daughter, it always makes me cry. She's such a good kid and so kind I always end up crying....lol. Si in future if you're feeling low, I'll just send my daughter down to you. She gives good hugs.

I must say though Laura don't the steroid injections hurt??? I am an utter wimp.

 

[Lauras87]

Aaaaaw Laura, I didn't mean to make you cry. Sorry. I do like a hug myself and if its my daughter, it always makes me cry. She's such a good kid and so kind I always end up crying....lol. Si in future if you're feeling low, I'll just send my daughter down to you. She gives good hugs.

I must say though Laura don't the steroid injections hurt??? I am an utter wimp.

Think I'm just hormonal hence the crying.

I won't lie, when my gp gave it I had to ring NHS direct at gone 11.30pm as I was in so much pain I was screaming. He hadn't injected properly & had gone to deep. But when my consultant did it, I didn't feel a thing.

But I had months of relief & since surgery in my left hand I feel better but I'm right handed so am worried about that op!

 

[Cat1964]

Think I'm just hormonal hence the crying.

I won't lie, when my gp gave it I had to ring NHS direct at gone 11.30pm as I was in so much pain I was screaming. He hadn't injected properly & had gone to deep. But when my consultant did it, I didn't feel a thing.

But I had months of relief & since surgery in my left hand I feel better but I'm right handed so am worried about that op!

Think I'll stick with the pain for now....lol. Will wait and see what my doctor says on Monday. Hormonal or not....keep your wee chin up Laura, xx

 

[Lauras87]

Think I'll stick with the pain for now....lol. Will wait and see what my doctor says on Monday. Hormonal or not....keep your wee chin up Laura, xx

Let me know how you get on 🙂

Thank you & hope all gets better for you

 

[Cat1964]

Will do Laura, can't wait to be rid of the pain. It would be nice to turn a door handle, pick up a bag or be able to spray deodorant without flinching with the pain x