Hi everyone,
I was diagnosed type II some 6 months or so ago😡, I have been managing it by diet alone, However, my step mum and a friend whom are also diabetic always put me down and my doctors because they insist I am not diabetic.😡
Ok, Step Mum, 20 stone, diabetes type II, does not really stick to the rules, will not eat white bread, has butter, cakes and well you get the picture, she is always passing out, being rushed to hospital, almost brags about her levels being 27 or more and that my avergae of 7 is no proof of being diabetic, she still insists that the doc has it wrong!😱
Friend? well, we don't speak recently, but she is insulin dependant, and alcoholic now, eats what she wants all the time and is always having hypo's-so she puts it.
Me, for the first 3 months I changed my diet upside down, literally overnight, no more meat fat, brown bread,- wholemeal though prefer wholegrain but unsure whether I can have it. gone on toe the pro active spread and so forth.
But, I lapsed for the last month or so, i.e. Tiramisu 3 times a week, profiteroles, caramel biscuit bars..and soup.
The main reason is I was ill earlier in the year and had H-Pylori, had triple therapy antibiotics and felt it near killed me off, I was so ill. After this I had two bad muscular spasms in my neck, resolved with diazepam, however, I woke up one day last week and the pain in my right shoulder, back and right arm is indescribable.. I am on diazepam, opremazole and awaiting gastroscopy on the third of Jan as cannot swallow anything large- cannot chew meat- or anything for that matter, have had acid reflux for some 18 months and on opremazole or lansoprazole.
I keep telling my doctors that I am on my way out and that keep thinking I have cancer...I lost my Mum and Gran two years ago to Cancer, they say it would show up in my bloods which are fine-except I am waiting for the doc to call as my last test's are high on the Cholesterol... only because of my relapse above and I only took the statins for whilst having the triple therapy.
But this pain I have is really getting me so het up, I am selling all my chickens off, selling all my instruments on the ebay- next sale I am buying a coffin! I do not mind saying, I was 50 last week. I do smoke though am trying so hard to pack up and have been for ages now, I have gone down from 50 a day to about 8 so it is getting closer, I wish I could just give up, incredibly I loathe the smell of it, I hold one a mile from me inbetween puffs and only ever smoke half of it.
I was a pot head for many years too and gave all that up, I have spent most of my life depressed and on antidepressants, threw them all away earlier this year and the pot and never gone back since, I do feel rather enlightened since this because I can think clearly now, and whilst I am still depressed, it is now much better than in my entire life, expect that this pain is really getting me down.
I thought I would write a long hello so you all know where I am coming from, I am a firm believer in honesty and openess and know I have probably been foolish in the past- but the depression was caused by child abuse.. I don't like mentioning it really but gives you an idea-just in case of those whom may be unsympathetic whom may have a go on forums.
Anyway, Hello 😱 I would appreciate advice regards my diabetes as all of what my doc has said has now started to worry me.
I was diagnosed type II some 6 months or so ago😡, I have been managing it by diet alone, However, my step mum and a friend whom are also diabetic always put me down and my doctors because they insist I am not diabetic.😡
Ok, Step Mum, 20 stone, diabetes type II, does not really stick to the rules, will not eat white bread, has butter, cakes and well you get the picture, she is always passing out, being rushed to hospital, almost brags about her levels being 27 or more and that my avergae of 7 is no proof of being diabetic, she still insists that the doc has it wrong!😱
Friend? well, we don't speak recently, but she is insulin dependant, and alcoholic now, eats what she wants all the time and is always having hypo's-so she puts it.
Me, for the first 3 months I changed my diet upside down, literally overnight, no more meat fat, brown bread,- wholemeal though prefer wholegrain but unsure whether I can have it. gone on toe the pro active spread and so forth.
But, I lapsed for the last month or so, i.e. Tiramisu 3 times a week, profiteroles, caramel biscuit bars..and soup.
The main reason is I was ill earlier in the year and had H-Pylori, had triple therapy antibiotics and felt it near killed me off, I was so ill. After this I had two bad muscular spasms in my neck, resolved with diazepam, however, I woke up one day last week and the pain in my right shoulder, back and right arm is indescribable.. I am on diazepam, opremazole and awaiting gastroscopy on the third of Jan as cannot swallow anything large- cannot chew meat- or anything for that matter, have had acid reflux for some 18 months and on opremazole or lansoprazole.
I keep telling my doctors that I am on my way out and that keep thinking I have cancer...I lost my Mum and Gran two years ago to Cancer, they say it would show up in my bloods which are fine-except I am waiting for the doc to call as my last test's are high on the Cholesterol... only because of my relapse above and I only took the statins for whilst having the triple therapy.
But this pain I have is really getting me so het up, I am selling all my chickens off, selling all my instruments on the ebay- next sale I am buying a coffin! I do not mind saying, I was 50 last week. I do smoke though am trying so hard to pack up and have been for ages now, I have gone down from 50 a day to about 8 so it is getting closer, I wish I could just give up, incredibly I loathe the smell of it, I hold one a mile from me inbetween puffs and only ever smoke half of it.
I was a pot head for many years too and gave all that up, I have spent most of my life depressed and on antidepressants, threw them all away earlier this year and the pot and never gone back since, I do feel rather enlightened since this because I can think clearly now, and whilst I am still depressed, it is now much better than in my entire life, expect that this pain is really getting me down.
I thought I would write a long hello so you all know where I am coming from, I am a firm believer in honesty and openess and know I have probably been foolish in the past- but the depression was caused by child abuse.. I don't like mentioning it really but gives you an idea-just in case of those whom may be unsympathetic whom may have a go on forums.
Anyway, Hello 😱 I would appreciate advice regards my diabetes as all of what my doc has said has now started to worry me.
