I'm debabting on how to put this without sounding too stroppy or feeling sorry for myself.....
Ok, i'm a tad confused about the whole pre-diabetes/ metabolic syndrome/ insulin resistance/glucose intollerance/ type two diabetes, business...
I've assumed i'm insulin resistant because i'm overweight and metformin works well for me. Ok, here's the story:
About 3 years ago, when i was at college studying for my BTEC in Pharmacy Services (which allows me to practice as a pharmacy technician), i took a glucose blood test. We were supposed to be practicing on each other so we could test customers in community pharmacies. This freaked me out somewhat, jabbing your finger is unpleasent enough, but doing this to another person....Wehhuhuh! Anyway, my friend did this to me and i got a reading of somewhere in the lower 7s. I panicked, coz we'd all just been told that having a level much above 5 meant we were probably diabetic. On the other hand , i'd just had a liquid breakfast of a bottle of full everything coke (oh, those were the days....) and nothing else. I went and hid in the toilets for the rest of that lesson. My teacher reassured me that this was probably the coke talking and i probably wasn't diabetic. (Huhuhuh) Looking back, i guess this should have sent me to a GP (not that i had one then) who might have told me i was pre-diabetic or syndrome X or whatever. This did convince me that i was going to me diabetic someday, probably when i got older, like i dunno, 60 or 70...like my grandparents were. Also bear in mind that what i knew about diabetes back then could be written on the back of a postage stamp...I thought it was something you were either born with or got when you were old. Sorry, but that's the truth, i'm obviously better informed now.
No symptoms until 2008, when in spring i developed an embarassing itch, which i assumed was cystitis and promptly ignored until autumn, when my eyes suddenly went blurry and this scared me enough to see a doctor. My blood sugar was somewhere around 19. Doctor asked me how long i'd been diabetic for....😱
Did i see it coming? Yes and no. I figured i'd get it someday, but not before retirement age. Sure, i ate a terrible diet, majoring on chocolate, but i'm not all that huge. I'm probably no more disproportional than many members of my family, most of whom arn't diabetic. Even my diabetes nurse agreed that my diet wasn't actually that much worse than in other people my age. I've got friends who are big and eat junk food and they're not diabetic. Did i just end up with the dodgy genes? Who knows....would i go back in time in my imaginary TARDIS and tell my twenty-something self not to eat so many snickers? No. ( besides, i'd be better off using the thing to fix my 14 year old self....🙂)
Lisa, i'd like to pass on Gretchen Becker's first, best piece of advice from her book. Diabetes isn't your fault. It's not retribution for eating junk food. After all, the world is full of people who eat terrible diets and have the cheek not to be diabetic...the gits. It's not fair, but that's life for you.
There, i did that without getting too self-pitying. I was wondering if i could demand a re-count and be re-classified....but then i'd have to pay for my prescriptions...
Rachel