Struggling

[PollyAnna1968]

I've been diabetic for around 15 years and I'm now insulin dependent. To be very honest, I haven't always managed it very well but I've tried. I ought to know better because it was the cause of my Dad's passing 7 years ago.

Just recently, I've just stopped caring. I feel selfish even saying this out loud. I have two daughters and two grandsons. A hubby that loves me.

I've just had enough of it now. I've had enough of blood testing, insulin injections, watching what I eat, denying my sweet tooth.

Can someone please tell me if these feelings are normal and will they pass?
Thank you for reading

 

[Drummer]

Perhaps you should speak to someone about the possibilities.
With insulin - I thought, you are encouraged to eat normally and and adjust the dose to cope with it. Also you can chose to eat your carbs as sugars just as easily as starches.

 

[Cherrelle DUK]

Hi PollyAnna1968, welcome to the forum.

It's totally normal to feel fed up of all the things that go along with having diabetes. It's not selfish at all as you are the one going through all of this so your feelings are completely understandable.

It might be worth having a chat with your GP or diabetic specialist about how to managing things moving forward. Especially as you're on insulin, you don't need to eliminate sweet things but a balanced, sustainable game plan can go a long way.

 

[Nayshiftin]

You may not like me saying this but depression does go with diabetes . Part of that can give you I ve had enough even if your not depressed in any other way . It’s normal to fight n flight grieve the process why me . However it could be you need to have help to stabilise everything . I’d seek advice from nurse or Gp that prescribed the insulin . Hope you feel better soon

 

[Taffyboyslim]

You may not like me saying this but depression does go with diabetes . Part of that can give you I ve had enough even if your not depressed in any other way . It’s normal to fight n flight grieve the process why me . However it could be you need to have help to stabilise everything . I’d seek advice from nurse or Gp that prescribed the insulin . Hope you feel better soon

I have suffered with serious anxiety and depression and I think you are right

 

[Nayshiftin]

I have suffered with serious anxiety and depression and I think you are right

Hugs, I walk that path some days I reach out and feel everyone hates me . Oh her again other times I suffer alone . You have been brave honest and I really respect you for that. To be fair I think the unpredictability of the disease keeps us in a state of you need to be aware . On the other hand some blame and shame when that really is ignorance. It’s time everyone including the medics respected all with this disease which if I’m honest even the diabetic society has no real yes this no that answer's to. You see no one reacts because all have different metabolisms. We all do different tasks with more or less effort in more or less heat with more or less stress. It’s no wonder . We as humans usually like yes no do this don’t do that answers then to complicate it we challenge why not or definitely I don’t want that . It’s in our nature it’s cause and effect. Now we can all go off the rails and not suffer then one day like recently I thought it was coffee but I think it’s due to the heat too and the fact I am trying to get my sugar readings down that I’m in a flap. So I have suffered but it’s the that word the journey . Thank goodness it does not stay the same . People in this group are incredible and try and help as I’m sure they have been there done that and let’s all wear our I have diabetes with pride. We are stronger together. I hope you soon feel back in a place your happy .