Well almost a year down the road from diagnosis (will be a year in September) of type 2. I’ve lowered my hba1c from 89 to 38, I’m 7st lighter and way way way fitter, really enjoy exercising now which I never thought I’d say and being out in the countryside walking my little dogs is when I’m happiest (lucky to live in rural Northumberland). I’m now 39 and for the last 20 years I’ve suffered from depression when I was diagnosed with type 2 diabetes last year it snowballed and became at times uncontrollable, I was bordering on hysterical much of the time. Over this past year I’ve learned to come to terms with this although it still scares me but I finally was starting to feel a bit better about all this but recently something complete different has triggered my depression and it’s at its worst in 20 years, I received a letter in the post with a gp appointment for an asthma review so although I really didn’t want to go out due to the way I’m feeling at the moment off I went under duress with my husband and when I sat down the health care assistant said it wasnt asthma it was diabetes yearly review it was at this point I totally freaked out and said no that’s not what the letter said and I’m not mentally prepared for this what If my hba1c has gone up I don’t think I’ll be able to cope with this right now and I burst into tears. My last hba1c was done in April - she said it was absolutely fine and to just come back in a few months when I’m ready. Then when I got home a couple of hours later I felt even worse cos I was then thinking am I just being even crazier than normal? I’m not doing anything I shouldn’t be and every time I test my bg 2 hours post meal it’s always either in the 6’s or 5’s. I’m the cold light of day (this happened on Friday) and now sitting here on Monday morning I’m thinking oh god I’ve been entirely irrational about this I should have just let her do everything