Welcome to the forum
@Ruth H
Sorry to hear you’ve been having a bit of an emotional time after your diagnosis. It’s actually not at all unusual, and many folks on the forum have been through the same thing. A diagnosis with a long term condition can bring with it a form of grieving, with the intense and muddled emotions that can involve, including anger, denial, bargaining, depression and acceptance. Sometimes all on the same day!
Diabetes is a serious condition, but it’s also one that can usually be managed well with a few changes and adaptations - it’s something that you can learn to live well with, and it shouldn’t stop you doing things you enjoy.
Don’t be too disheartened about your diagnosis, many people on the forum later realise that their diagnosis became a catalyst which prompted them to make positive changes towards a healthier and more active life. Perhaps changes that they had been intending to make for years. Many find that the changes they made to help with blood glucose management have substantially improved other long-term health niggles (eg skin condition, or migraines). Some say they’ve not felt so ‘healthy’ in years!
Often you don’t realise how weary, worn down and lethargic you have been feeling. Erratic and elevated blood glucose levels can be exhausting and are linked with low mood, but this may have come on quite gradually. Making a few positive changes can give you more energy, a clearer mind, and a brighter outlook. Plus the regular checks you get after a diagnosis with diabetes mean that any potential problems may be spotted earlier, and can be sorted out sooner.
Good luck with finding your own path through the range of options and strategies that can help with blood glucose management. And keep asking questions as they arise.
🙂