Catherine-louise
Well-Known Member
- Relationship to Diabetes
- Type 1
Hello Everyone!
Just signed up! I've had diabetes for since the day before my 13th birthday and I'm now almost 21 (wow, I've just realised how scarily fast time flies by!! 😱 ) Anyway, my Dr finally persuaded me to go onto a pump around 14 month ago after I had a terrifying hypo in which I turned very violent and was completely out of it. I'd say the pump was definitely a wise choice and I'm so glad I went on it, but I'm still really struggling to find a balance with my diabetes. The scary thing is that I often here fellow diabetics talk about 15/16 mmol being 'scary, scary high...' whereas i'd consider my 'scary, scary high' to be much higher than that - in the 20s maybe. Coupled with my diabetes I recently started suffering panic attacks whilst out and about - mainly my worries (at the moment) are centred around the fear of going hypo and being unable to help myself. Naturally, because of this, I've been giving less and less insulin which has resulted in me going even higher! I've also just started a new job, which is proving to be a bit of a nightmare! An hour or so into my shift, I'm hitting 17mmol, then giving 2 units to bring myself down and coming wayyyy, wayyy down, so I'm panicking and throwing Lucozade down my neck only to find myself again reaching highs of 17!
At this point, I might mention of my absolute fears of complications. I sometimes work myself into such a state at the thought of what damage might be happening to my body. It's frustrating, as I'm sure you all well know.
My Drs are trying to get me to attend a DAFNE course, but unfortunately, what with these panic attacks, it's not looking like an option for me at the moment. My Mum suggested popping onto a forum site to see if anyone could offer me any support or advice and at first I shrugged off the idea, but somehow I ended up here! 😛
Looking forward to hearing from lots of you! 🙂
I suppose we're all in the same boat, anyone got a paddle?? 😛 xx
Just signed up! I've had diabetes for since the day before my 13th birthday and I'm now almost 21 (wow, I've just realised how scarily fast time flies by!! 😱 ) Anyway, my Dr finally persuaded me to go onto a pump around 14 month ago after I had a terrifying hypo in which I turned very violent and was completely out of it. I'd say the pump was definitely a wise choice and I'm so glad I went on it, but I'm still really struggling to find a balance with my diabetes. The scary thing is that I often here fellow diabetics talk about 15/16 mmol being 'scary, scary high...' whereas i'd consider my 'scary, scary high' to be much higher than that - in the 20s maybe. Coupled with my diabetes I recently started suffering panic attacks whilst out and about - mainly my worries (at the moment) are centred around the fear of going hypo and being unable to help myself. Naturally, because of this, I've been giving less and less insulin which has resulted in me going even higher! I've also just started a new job, which is proving to be a bit of a nightmare! An hour or so into my shift, I'm hitting 17mmol, then giving 2 units to bring myself down and coming wayyyy, wayyy down, so I'm panicking and throwing Lucozade down my neck only to find myself again reaching highs of 17!
At this point, I might mention of my absolute fears of complications. I sometimes work myself into such a state at the thought of what damage might be happening to my body. It's frustrating, as I'm sure you all well know.
My Drs are trying to get me to attend a DAFNE course, but unfortunately, what with these panic attacks, it's not looking like an option for me at the moment. My Mum suggested popping onto a forum site to see if anyone could offer me any support or advice and at first I shrugged off the idea, but somehow I ended up here! 😛
Looking forward to hearing from lots of you! 🙂
I suppose we're all in the same boat, anyone got a paddle?? 😛 xx
