Hi Jackie,
I related very much to your message......I'm 43, diagnosed at 19, not always given diabetes enough respect, 2 children - all that went ok though they were easy to concieve, big but no special care etc. However, maybe it's our age, but very aware of the future and scared of being dependent, sick etc. 'Silent killer' after so many years gets me going as well. I do pay more attention to diabetes now though and I'm aware of changes esp of hypo symptoms. I am doing a DAFNE type course at the moment (over 4 wks) which is helping to update me and has so far shown me I'm probably taking too much insulin and its helping 'update' me a bit on all this carb stuff which I think I need. However on meeting other type 1's at the group I also recognize I am not doing so bad under the circumstances compared to some! I would recommend it though. Anyway just wanted to tell you I completely related to your post........keep going x