You're welcome 🙂 Dunno if this helps, but when my mood is low, I tell myself I'm doing well, even though I'm ill. This gives a nod to not being myself and a sense of achievement. My cycle is like this:
1) Low mood
2) Low performance in all kinds of ways
3) Frustration and anxiety
4) goto 1)
And so round and round it goes. The trouble with mood is it's invisible to others. If you broke your leg, nobody would expect you to run up the stairs and you wouldn't expect it of yourself either. Mood can be just as debilitating I think.
Do you like swimming? It's good exercise and supportive for your joints, so no impact. Any road up, yes a mile is much better than nothing, by a long chalk. And as far as putting pressure on yourself, maybe you need to forgive yourself for being unwell. Then maybe you can give yourself a break from pressuring yourself. Or in other words, let yourself off the hook.
I've spent a good few months with crushing tiredness. First the doc thought it was low folic acid, but with that addressed, it seems now I'm prediabetic. It's been a good kick up the backside for me as I'm not having any refined sugars and am cycling a mile a day. So, improved diet, better fitness and weight loss. It's given me a bit of a boost, looking after myself and the tiredness is starting to fade.
The problem I have is that if you have a significant illness, you tend to lump all symptoms into that category, but it may be something else. Always worth getting your bloods done at the GP I think. My wife thought the tiredness was low mood and she may be proved to be correct. Time will tell. It's bloomin' hot here in Deal, so the bike ride will have to be later when it cools. I don't fancy adding dehydration to my list lol.
Anyway, once again, I wish you all the luck in the world getting better.
Just one more thing. I went on a time management course and the guy said you should make a list of your tasks and tick them off one by one and you'll feel good about it. I remember thinking what? Am I 12 years old? But I tried it and it does.
The difficulty of the tasks on the list depends how gaga I am. If the gaga is pretty high, it might be things like take a shower, do the washing up, buy milk etc. They may sound trivial but that's the best I can do at the time.
Of course at peak gaga, all bets are off, no lists, no positive thinking, just feeling rough, but sometimes it beats you and you have to accept that, hoping tomorrow you can do better.
Blimey I think I've gone into full ramble.
Anyway good luck 🙂
Steve