In that first week and just can't get past the diagnosis. I am 58 and now thinking my future and will it be cut short etc. Hate the food choices I now seemingly have to make but I dont want to get ill. Life's a bitch and I feel really bad right now.
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@inkspot
Sorry to hear about your diagnosis - it's not at all uncommon to feel knocked sideways by a diagnosis. Not helped in the slightest by the pervasive (and very unfair) cloud of stigma and blame in pop culture.
Try not to be disheartened about your diagnosis, many people on the forum later reflect that their diagnosis became a sort of catalyst - a turning point which prompted them to make positive changes towards a healthier and more active life. Perhaps changes that they had been intending to make for years, but never quite managed. Diabetes is a serious condition, but it’s also one that can usually be managed well with a few changes and adaptations - it’s something that you can learn to live well with, and it shouldn’t stop you doing things you enjoy.
There may even be positives in time. Sometimes you don’t realise how weary, worn down and lethargic you have been feeling. Erratic and elevated blood glucose levels can be exhausting and are linked with low mood, but this may have come on quite gradually, so you may just have got used to feeling that way. Making a few positive changes can give you more energy, a clearer mind, and a brighter outlook. Plus the regular checks you get after a diagnosis with diabetes mean that any potential problems may be spotted earlier, and can be sorted out sooner.
Food choices can be a little confusing to begin with, and it can feel slightly like you are backed into a corner and there literally isn't anything left to eat. The foods which have least effect on blood glucose levels like meats and fats don't always have the best reputation for heart health. While whole grain carbs which are sometimes recommended have all the glucose-raising potential of their processed and refined counterparts.
There isn't one single diet that will work for everyone, and many new arrivals on the forum find that moderating their carbohydrate content to a lower daily amount is a helpful start in reducing blood glucose levels. But lower carb doesn't mean no carb, and it's important to make changes that are sustainable with a menu that is flexible enough to stick with.
Perhaps it would help to keep a food diary of what you are eating and drinking for a week or two, just to get a sort of baseline. Make an estimate of the total carbohydrate content of your meals and snacks (total carbohydrate is much more useful than 'of which sugars'). Then once you can see which meals are your 'big hitters' you might spot some possible options for swaps, changes, and portion reductions.
Good luck, and let us know how things go. We are rooting for you
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