Hi Bad Diabetic, join the Club!
It's fairly exclusive Club as I too am a Social Pariah, not for having T1 at all ... for still smoking!
No it isn't good for me - or you, or anyone except possibly the Tax coffers, but there again as we go to Belgium to get our baccy, it doesn't even profit the Government. So how EXTRA WICKED is that then ?
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If it's any possible consolation, nothing of mine has actually dropped off or ceased to function properly yet - but there again a few years ago I was actually having a complete nervous breakdown and the life that surrounded me was so full of stress, I honestly thought I would land up in a padded cell. (or at the wheel in a car wrapped round a tree, not much to choose between em really)
But I managed to figure out that there WAS just ONE thing in my life that I jolly well should be able to control - and that thing was my BG !
They DO assume we ought to know everything - and we don't.
I badgered my local NHS till they got me on a Carb Counting course and WOW! Changed my life. Since then I've also got meself an insulin pump and (I think) I'm managing pretty much OK.
I'm not saying it's easy, cos it ain't, if anyone EVER says D is easy they are lying. But hell, if I can do it, in that state - then I reckon you can too!
Give it a bash. Just do it ONE day at a time until it becomes as much a habit as $0??ing nicotine ........