Ellowyne
Well-Known Member
- Relationship to Diabetes
- Type 2
Today, feel like I can't cope...don't want to cope anymore, and as for diabetes, well is can just take a running jump. My son, he suffers with complex mental health issues, he is so depressed at this time, onlky 18 and he wants to end his life...the life I gave him. I am such in a state, he won't let me phone anyone or ge him any help, I feel so lost and alone, the pain he feels runs through my veins like razors. As for the bloody mental health section, well, they just don't seem to care, it's taken so long to even get him an assessment to have a care co ordinator....it will be many more weeks before any help is put into place, and, as they tell me, he is 18, if he does'nt want help they can't force him to have any, which I understand, but where does that leave him?....I can only be there for him and try to comfort him, but he, well, he never gets angry or shouts, he closes up and just will not talk or eat or come out of his room...I know this sounds selfish but can't bare this pain anymore...I wish I would be struck down if my son could only feel better. And, what kind of mother have I been anyway???....God bloody awful, how can he just feel like this on his own, I must of done something wrong. I am sory, I know this is not diabetes related, but I have now where else to turn to.......NO where, my family is very isolated wit no support network, funny a...I always think, if I was to die my family would be out in force, all crying, lol!....But now, when you need help, because they do not know what to say.....the say nothing.
How do you help someone with such depression?....he wants me to leave him alone, I don't, I tell him I will have to check on him every 2 hours at least, I am too afraid to just let him 'get on with it' I love him too much, I do give him space....but I can't just keep away for hours on end when I know he will be laying in his bed, blind shut and in he dark....If he does something I could not go on....I just am so lost.
How do you help someone with such depression?....he wants me to leave him alone, I don't, I tell him I will have to check on him every 2 hours at least, I am too afraid to just let him 'get on with it' I love him too much, I do give him space....but I can't just keep away for hours on end when I know he will be laying in his bed, blind shut and in he dark....If he does something I could not go on....I just am so lost.