I just Can't cope with much more

[Ellowyne]

Sorry, not very happy message again and...always!

So, I have been having increasing pain with my Gall bladder, and have felt very unwell for some weeks. My last 3 blood tests show that there is something up with my Liver...the measurmenst are for the ALT & ALP of the Liver?...Both are elevated, one more than twice the normal and the other 3 times the norm.

My Gp has phoned me today and said that they are requesting and 'Urgent' Ultrasound on my Liver and also sent me for an Urgent appointment with a Surgeon and Gasto dept...Not sure why Gastro also? They have said that there is reason to believe that I have somthing wrong with the Liver, they done some graph and explained it all but my head is so fuzzed with information, I just feel confused and scared.

My Gp was very kind on the phone, that helped, she said that things are at a level where as they need to intervene before things get worse.

I can't eat hardely at all, I feel so bloated, I have been living off yogurts and water, I am so thirsty also and just can't drink enogh because of this Bloatedness in my stomach.

I am just so tired, I feel like my soul is worn out and I am just always up against a wall...I have so many health problems one seems to exasberate the other...Having not eaten mush I am still waking up to blood fasting of 10+!

I think if they need to operate, I think that I will die...I keep feeling so panicked and scared, so scared I make myself feel nauseus with fear.

I never have anything positive to offer here do I?...I am always so down and I hate to come here to vent, but I have nowhere else to go.

This is ALL my own doing though, the consquences I have to accept...I am so the classical fat diabetic type 2 and all the horrible things are starting to happen to me...

You know what though, I will never be but truthful about who I am...I did Never gorge, I have never been a greddy person and I dont eat HUGE portions as most would believe...I hate cream cakes and chocolate and biscuits...Yes, my only vice and war has been with Coke! But I fought that and, 99% I win, yes I fall occasionally and have a can that I should'nt...But then I revert back to my diet drinks...you see, I have tried, but I guess it wasn't enough.

I am sorry to burden, I have to sleep for a bit now, I have been so tired...The Gp said that the tiredness is related to the Liver problem...whatever that may be.

Thank you for reading...Ellowyne x

 

[Lilies]

Ellowyne firstly a great big hug, and i hope things get sorted... dont fear an op though, i had one in febuary and was convinced i was going to die, in a complete state , they had to sedate me before administering the general but gues what, i didnt die and i recovered quickly , modern anaesthetics are so much better these days
wishin gyou all the best xxx

 

[Northerner]

Hi Ellowyne, please don't apologise for sharing your problems here, you know you are amongst friends 🙂 I'm sorry to hear about the possibility of an operation. Perhaps when the shock has passed a little you could talk to your doctor again and perhaps get her to write down some information so that you are clear about what is wrong and what needs to be done.

I hope that, with a better understanding, you can start to feel more positive and hope also that this will relieve some of your suffering so that you feel you can eat a more varied diet and begin to feel stronger.

{{{{Ellowyne}}}}

 

[everydayupsanddowns]

Hang in there Ellowyne. Hope you feel better soon.

 

[Sheilagh1958]

Sending you hugs. Hope you feel better soon

 

[Tezzz]

Please try and look at the positive things. I'm sure you wll be fine in hospital. Please try not to worry. The doctor was very good and the way I see things the sooner something gets fixed, the sooner you'll get better with less complications and suffering.

Have you told your doctor about your thirst and tiredness? You could have high blood sugars.

Oh and another thing - there's nothing wrong with bigger women (don't use the f*t word) so don't put yourself down or I'll come up and give you a real rather than virtual hug.

Now go and do something you like.

 

[am64]

hugs Ellowynne one can of coke wont harm you occasionally just think of the difference you have made fromwhen you were drinking it all the time! ...and this place exists precisely for people to RANT as it all helps x best of luck my friend

 

[Blythespirit]

Oh sweetheart! Don't ever feel you need to apologise for turning to your friends on here for support. That's what we're here for. And don't keep blaming yourself for the situation you find yourself in at the moment. It's not your fault! You don't deserve to be feeling as ill as you are, and you are worth all the docs efforts to help you.

Your doc sounds kind and supportive, so try and see it as a positive thing that you are going to get the help you need. Let them do what they need to do so you can start and feel a bit better.

Sending you hugs and hoping you see some improvement soon. Stay strong and take care. XXXXX

 

[Lizzie53]

poor you - hugs from me too. I had a bit of a liver scare a while back. The things you mentioned were greatly elevated for me too. First I had an ultrasound and then a liver biopsy - if you have to have one of those don't panic as it isn't anything as bad as you might imagine and it is done with a local. You just have to lie on your side for a few hours after and then you can go home. Mine turned out to be fatty liver and of course I have to lose weight. I have lost some - oh and I had to come off statins. Recent blood test show the elevated levels have come down quite a bit.

 

[Andy HB]

poor you - hugs from me too. I had a bit of a liver scare a while back. The things you mentioned were greatly elevated for me too. First I had an ultrasound and then a liver biopsy - if you have to have one of those don't panic as it isn't anything as bad as you might imagine and it is done with a local. You just have to lie on your side for a few hours after and then you can go home. Mine turned out to be fatty liver and of course I have to lose weight. I have lost some - oh and I had to come off statins. Recent blood test show the elevated levels have come down quite a bit.

Fatty liver here too when diagnosed. I also had elevated levels of something or other as a consequence. The good news is that it is often reversible.

Good luck with things,

Andy 🙂

 

[Robster65]

I don't know much about livers I'm afraid, but I do know that if they say they want to operate, they know you will be ok for the op. You must feel really terrible with all that's happening to you and around you, but that doesn't mean you can't feel better with some treatment, as necessary. No op comes with a guarantee, as you know, but they operate on people who have to be virtually put back together and they survive.

If you could get your GP to write some of the basics down, you can maybe read it a few times later so you have a chance to digest it.

Remember, they are very good at keeping people alive. It's their job, and they don't like bad statistics. So put some faith in them (I know you've had that shaken recently) and tell them your fears and maybe they will surprise you with how caring and competant they can be.

Keep posting. Rants or otherwise.🙂

Rob

 

[Ellowyne]

Thank you so much for all your supportive and kind messages. I always feel less alone when I come here...I have been sleeping for a couple of hours, I tried to eat some dinner but could'nt manage it, this nausea is so persistant...I just had a yogurt to settle my tummy down. I think I am best staying with soft food for now, little and often I guess.

I have to pick some forms up from my GP tommorow, I think they are for the Ultrasound?...He said he would be asking for an Urgent appointment for the Surgeon and Gastro, I will just wait to see when I get an appointment now.

I will post back when I know some more, I so mappretiate the kindness you all show me here...Thank you all so much and bless you all, what would we do without the wondeful wolrd of the Net and places like here...I know I would feel so much more lonely.

Thank you, so much...Ellowyne x

 

[margie]

Dear Ellowyne - you have been under so much stress - and when stressed our brains can switch off - shock can make you switch off too. I suspect it was one of these things when you were being told your results. When you go in to your surgery tomorrow - explain to the receptionists that you were in a state of shock when the Dr spoke to you and don't fully understand what is happening and could they help you to get an appointment or phone consultation or if the Dr could write you a summary. Its worth a try.

I know its easy to say - but try not to worry about the tests - if there is a serious problem the sooner its found the better and if there isn't you will have worried for nothing.

I am not sure if I have asked this before but is there anything you could do that will give you a lift - a bath in your favourite smellies, a favourite film you can watch? something that will distract you from all your worries and responsibilities for just a short time.

You are a lot stronger than you give yourself credit for. Sending you lots of hugs {{{{{{}}}}}} and best wishes.

 

[bigpurpleduck]

So sorry to hear of yet more troubles for you, Ellowyne.

As Rob said, they won't operate if they don't think it's safe to do so.

I hope they get to the root of the problem and are able to treat you one way or another quickly.

not sure if I have asked this before but is there anything you could do that will give you a lift - a bath in your favourite smellies, a favourite film you can watch? something that will distract you from all your worries and responsibilities for just a short time.

You are a lot stronger than you give yourself credit for. Sending you lots of hugs {{{{{{}}}}}} and best wishes.

Totally agree with Margie - be kind to yourself.

((((Hugs))))

 

[Ellowyne]

Ultrasound Tommorow

Thank you for all the messages...

Well, I have my Ultrasound tommorow!...Really quick, I thought it may be a week or so, still, my GP asked for it to be Urgent I guess.

I will post when I know more about results...Thank you for all your Kind support.

Ellowyne xXx

 

[Northerner]

Thank you for all the messages...

Well, I have my Ultrasound tommorow!...Really quick, I thought it may be a week or so, still, my GP asked for it to be Urgent I guess.

I will post when I know more about results...Thank you for all your Kind support.

Ellowyne xXx

I had an ultrasound when I was diagnosed, it was pretty straightforward - just some gel (cold!) spread over my abdomen then a device run over it. Hope it goes well Ellowyne 🙂

 

[Caroline]

In order to cope with all the things you cope with you have to be strong. Many people feel down sometimes, and they have nowehere to go. You came here and shared how you feel, that took a lot of strength and courage. I hope you feel better.

With operations many people fear the worst and are always happy when it is not as bad as they thought it would be. I'm sure things will go well for you. We are all on your side.

 

[margie]

Good Luck Ellowyne. I will be thinking of you.

 

[muddlethru]

Thinking of you and sending hugs. You will be just fine. I don't know much about liver issues only gall bladder. My granddaughter and my husband had an op to remove the gall bladder recently and they are both fine and really enjoying food without all the pain and bloating they had. Hang in ther kiddo we are all rooting for you.

 

[pippin]

Ellowyne sending you lots of hugs I know you don't know me but your post means a lot as I really care for everyone especially on this forum. I can't help as much as the experts on this forum but just want you to know I think you are very brave and I will be thinking about you.
{{{hugs}}}}