Hello buff_mk,
I know exactly how you feel. I am a new user to this site as well and came here looking for help and other people who know what living with diabetes is like. I have always been conscious of my weight and before I was diagnosed I was 7 and a half stone, perfect in my eyes, I could wear what I wanted with confidence. I am now 5'4 and weigh 9 and a half stone. With the extra 2 stone I feel overweight and have major issues everytime I look in the mirror. However EVERYBODY who knows me has said that I looked unhealthy and ill and that I look a million times better now. Still it is hard to believe. I've felt lonely many, many times and snap at people who try to tell me that it's not that bad. How would they know? How would they feel having to test their blood and inject themselves before they eat ANYTHING? And then spend the whole time worrying what your sugars are doing and have you taken enough insulin what will happen if you've taken too much? Give me a break, you don't know what it's like and I bet you wouldn't do it properly either! But there are people who can help, whether it's a professional or a friend on here that can pick you up and dust you off when you had a little stumble. Keep with it huni and long term the results will be worth it. That's what I keep telling myself anyway!!