Hello
@Charlotte7 and welcome
🙂 I'm sorry you are having a tough time.
There is an excellent organisation who you can contact for help DWED (diabetics with eating disorders) link here
http://dwed.org.uk/ or alternatively talk to the diabetes uk helpline and they will be able to advise you how to get help
https://www.diabetes.org.uk/how_we_help/helpline.
I lived with diabulimia for years, manipulating insulin with a really bad relationship with food. It all takes its toll mentally and physically. Being sick of being sick is a good description. Eating disorders are not uncommon with T1 diabetes and help is out there - it may take some persistence to get the correct help but keep at it because you deserve to feel happy and healthy.
Diabulimia covers a whole range of physical and mental issues we can face, binge eating, manipulating insulin, limiting food intake etc here's a bit of information from the Diabetes UK site
How diabulimia develops
There are lots of reasons diabulimia may develop. It’s often not just down to one thing – it might be a combination of physical, social and mental health problems. When you have Type 1, the things you need to do to manage it can play a part in setting off diabulimia, like:
- having to carefully read food labels
- the focus on your weight when you go to the clinic
- having to eat to treat hypos, which can cause weight gain and guilt
- being constantly aware of carbohydrates or calories in food
- feeling shame over how you manage your diabetes
- a bad relationship with your healthcare team
- difficulty keeping to a healthy weight.
How common is diabulimia?
The term diabulimia may not be well known – but it is a serious problem.
But we don’t know exactly how many people are living with it. It’s estimated around 4 out of 10 women, aged 15 to 30, take less insulin to lose weight. And for young men, it’s around 1 out of 10. Research shows men with diabetes are more worried about their weight than men who don’t have diabetes.
Please contact your DSN or GP and ask for some help to start to get you to a better place. They will have heard it before, you are not the only one feeling like this. Best Wishes.